Juz came back celebrating e 1st day of Syawal wif my family.. its tiring but i cant get to sleep.. nothing new to say but ya, i'm thinking of ayah.. laz nite while e takbir was playing on e radio, i was trying so hard to distract myself by sewing e buttons on my kebaya.. but i cudnt help & tears kept falling & falling of my face while sewing.. guez mama & bapak saw me cried but they din say anything.. i think they understand.. after dat i went out to meet a fren of mine on e excuse that i wana play bunge api, i had a chance to express how i felt bout ayah, about how i think i caused him hurt & finally cried my heart out.. did nothing but juz cried & cried.. i muz admit i felt really better after all dat crying...




today while trying to take a pic wif my aunt, a cousin of mine said sumthing dat really was rude & hurtful.. but i guez she din realized it cos she's young & i scolded her for it anyway.. but tears formed in my eyes.. wat she said was true but i din imagine dat it caused hurt wen she said, "kecian si anak yatim ni nak ambek gambar dgn mak aku.." i never tot dat word can hurt me.. but i'm not gonna spoilt my Hari Raya.. Its a day of celebration so i brushed it aside..



niwae, on tis special day, i wud like to say Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim frenz.. i wud also like to ask for forgiveness as we begin a new chapter in our life today.. Hope u guys will haf fun & joy in celebrating Syawal for e next 30 days..

SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa AiDiLfItRi

MaAf ZaHiR & BaTin

(tired face after whole day of working & jalan raya)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...