BeAuTiFuL DiSaStErS

2010-03-22T23:27:00.003+08:00

i had juz occured a very embarassing moment here in my room while watching sex & eCT.. damn.. was watching Samantha doing her fireman in season 3,my mum decides to walk into my room wif baby in her arms.. so i chased her out cos i was smoking & i do not wan Dinol anywhere near my smoke.. but den... @ e very same moment,Samantha decided to scream as loud as she can get as she reached her orgasm.. FrEaK!! i wan frantically trying to press e 'pause' button.. but of cos, machines dun work wen u desperately nid them to.. mama din see any image on my screen but i think its obvious enough juz by e sound of it.. damn.. luckily,she moved off before saying, "Come Dinol.. we go outside.. bibik's smoking..!"
God, i hate Samantha!!

niwae, other than Sex & eCt.. i haf other life too,u noe.. for one, been spending time wif e fockers,which is a gud thing.. getting myself involved wif Omar's wedding,especially wif e hantaran cake.. yuhoo!! hope e cake will be a gud one & cost-friendly cos i'm planning to sponsor it.. hmmmm..
& i'm grateful to Allah for letting me noe tis family.. e whole family has been very nice & accepting of me.. & i'm praying it will be same for mine too.. Insya Allah.. So frenz,plz... plz pray for me ya.. Hopefully,they will accept the truth..
u noe e song 'Terrified'? from kara,e american idol judge..? dats wat i'm feeling now..

And I-I- I'm in Lurve...

And I- I- I'm terrified..

For e first time & e laz time

In my only Life...............

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2010-03-13T02:17:00.002+08:00

sex & e city... hmm.. interesting topics & interesting views.. i wish i cud b like them.. having galfrenz who r dere for u,can talk about anything & everything in e world.. though they haf their differences, they haf something similar.. : they haf each other & stand by each other,no matter how screwed up they can be..
oh well, life has its ups & downs.. & so does frenz who comes & goes.. i'm juz contented wif e true frenz dat i haf in my life rite now.. tankiu for being who u r to me.. distance & time spent together doesnt matter as long as u noe who u r..

1 very interesting topic in sex & e ct is about singles & attached (married or engaged or watever).. somehow they feel like they r being outcast juz bcos they r single.. does such a thing matter? apparently, yes.. in the western countries, they even haf singles tables in a wedding.. i'm sooo glad dat they do not haf it here in sg.. otherwise, they'll haf Sani's & my name permanently engraved dere.. hahahha!!
not only dat,for events & outings,they r often not asked by their attached frenz becos obviously,they do not wan them to be left out.. hmmm.. its bad enough dat the society is outcasting them but even their frenz r doing dat..

on another side, their crazy & heavily pregnant fren wanna get back into singlehood life,desperately.. seeing how happy & how fun the singles r, she felt a pinch & crashed their party wif her baby in tow to e party..
so wat is it in life do people wan? singlehood or attached? cant e singles mingle wif the attached?

Food for thought,people... food for thought..
=)

ps: Amin is getting married today.. =) Congrats,my bro!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2010-03-02T14:18:00.002+08:00

it has been ages since i laz blogged..
its not cos i do not haf e time but was too lazy to even log in.. 1 day become 1 week.. den 1 week became 1 mth.. hahhahah!! not dat dere's nothing exciting bout my life.. of cos,there r..
1st thing 1st,i had e most incredible & exciting trip ever to Bali for my bdae getaway.. wen wif e people i loved or so i tot.. but i enjoyed every minute of the trip.. right to e day wen i got super duper extremely swollen left eye cos of some dusty shop dere.. but i am overly contented wif my trip.. para-sailing, sight-seeing, shopping, river-rafting & most importantly,bungee-jumping!! did 2 jumps.. & its funny cos they even haf happy hour for bungy jump.. buy 1 get 1 jump free from 2-4pm.. hahah.. & i came at 345pm..
words cannot express how scared i was standing @ e platform dere & how ugly my face was,trying to hold myself together.. videos of my jumps r available on FB..
& i haf a fabulous,romantic,delicious dinner @ a villa @ Legian,complete wif a surprise mini bdae celebration.. ANYWAY,e cake was ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS!!! special thanks to all my cousins for making tis trip an enjoyable one!! luv u guys..

on another note,turning 26 was a denial for me.. i cant accept e fact dat i've not achieved wat i wan in life,like how i haf planned years ago.. i shud b married now wif a successful career,living happily wif my wonderful husband who loves me dearly,in my very own fully renovated home..
or at least,settle down a bit.. change my character abit.. in simpler words, i nid a change now dat my life dun go according to my plans..
after bali, i wanna change everything.. so laz week,i did wat i've always wanted to do but was always hesitant.. frenz can see how i've changed my outlook for now.. hopefully,my attitude will change too,slowly..

niwae, i do not wana blog much now.. but i've got 1 thing to say..

"mayb u r juz a part of me that have happened but will not happen...."

currently,i'm watching sex & the city series.. i've juz finished vol 1 & i can so relate to them bout sex,frenz & relationships.. think soon,i'll update my blogs based on e series dat i've watched.. i noe... i noe... its kinda late cos my frenz haf even finished e whole series but i'm juz starting.. but at least,its betta than never.. & juz by watching e vol 1,i've found e answer to e question dat i've always ask...

"E 1 u love or E 1 who loves u....?"

till next time....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2010-01-28T12:24:00.002+08:00

As for today, Dino is no longer mine.. it has been sold to my colleague,Helmi.. auw.. i din really haf to sell it away but i guez e money can b use in a more fruitful way for my parents.. haiz...
my heart kinda ache cos it is my dream bike.. Super4 in a very bright yellow color.. but its ok.. at least i did haf it for 7 moths.. hopefully it will be happy wif e new owner.. Niwae, thanks to Helmi & wifey for buying it..

niwae, 2 days ago was e chalet thingy for Alpha @ ChangiCottage.. a lot of people din go but wat e heck.. i haf my company & it was great.. Me,Haslin & Shida put e F-U-N in fun dere,u noe.. participated in e games & it was hilarious.. special thanks to Kak Suhana for playing along in the Dog&Bone game.. though tiring & we lost,still it was great fun,panting,chasing & dragging people.. hahahha.. i got hit in e head by Shida but after seeing sum stars,i'm ok.. =)
den move on to musical chairs.. hahaha.. mcm budak2 kecik.. down to 2 contestants: Me & DO Han.. but after a 'tough' fight, i merged as the Champion!! yeah!!
Lucky draw was funny cos Haslin,Shida & me won e same thing.. hahah! So officially,i got myself a 3rd MP3.. =)
Last but not least,after e makciks was ruling e karaoke set, e 3 crazy gals took over & it was so so so sun.. we danced & laughed & sing a lot... sampai jadi kecoh sey.. at least we managed to pull in e uncles (abg rafik & aru & azali) to join in e fun.. it was such a priviledge to be able to sing wif abg gigi.. hahhaa.. wait till u guys see e vids,man.. happening giler..

niwae,Thanks to Haslin & Rashida for giving me e yellow-theme prezzies.,way too advance.. i lurve e gifts,gals... thankiu tankiu thankiu!! & it means 1 more day to my Bdae trip.. so exciting!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2010-01-25T19:34:00.003+08:00

had such a tiring yesterday.. here's e story.. came home on sat nite & went to JB Pasar Pandan wif a couple of frenz since i rented a car.. e purpose is to bring A who has never been dere before.. tour guide, me & Ir.. Since its e demise of e Sultan of Johor, most shops are closed.. niwae, i told A e reason y la.. Den suddenly, Ir came to me & said, "eh.. i noticed sumthing different la.. they r all wearing e same songkok.. cool ah?"

1 word: DUMB-DUMB..

niwae,din haf much sleep den off to e zoo wif my 4 monsters & sis.. really ah.. it was really tiring to walk e whole of zoo wif 4 kids who r,of cos,very demanding.. we wen to e kids area & of cos they had fun playing @ e wet playground.. as for me, i had to endure e hot sun.. haiz..

niwae, i din haf my camera wif me so i din take much photos.. its still on loan wif sani.. wonder wen he'll b back tis time.. really nid it back for my trip to bali tis sat.. i hope he'll b back on time,though.. i'll kill him if i dun get my camera by den.. hmmmph!!

PS: 4 more days to go..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2010-01-23T12:19:00.001+08:00

sacrifice goes a long way...

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2010-01-21T12:56:00.003+08:00

how i wish i cud do sumthing to help.. but all i can do is to watch helplessly...
i'm sorry things turned out tis way.. i hope u stay strong & i wan u to know dat i'm always here for u,regardless...

i lurve u.. i lurve my 4 monsters.. i lurve mama.. & i lurve ayah.. i will support watever decision u make.. u can mark my words.. BUT plz.... make a decision for urself, ur well-being, for UR OWN happiness..

we'll go thru e obstacles together,i promise...

*hugs & kisses*

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2010-01-17T22:36:00.002+08:00

Open your eyes
And look outside find the reasons why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find what you've left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs?

She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside with no place to go
No place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

Her feelings she hides, her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind, she's fallen behind
And she can't find her place, she's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace, she's all over the place...

(-_-)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2010-01-15T02:55:00.002+08:00

0255hrs

hey hey.. me still not asleep yet.. hahaha..
niwae, shall tell u guys about my oh-so-super-exciting Bali trip.. will be going on 30th Jan till 3rd Feb.. yuhoo.. itinerary's all done up.. cant wait for 2nd Feb.. me going for a bungy jump!! HELL YEAH!!!
ok. actually,i'm nervous.. very nervous.. everytime i think of it, my heart will beat very fast.. i admit.. i'm scared.. scared to death to be exact.. BUT!!! i will do it & i can do it.. even if i cant, i've already told my cuzzies to force me to jump off dat damn platform.. hahahhaha!! & i'm not gonna bother myself wif all e stories bout bungy jump gone wrong cos i dun care.. i will do it while i'm still young..
wait.. young?! i'm not dat young anymore lor.. ahakz!! dats e reason i wanna jump on my BDAE day itself.. dun worry,people.. already bought 2 insurance policies in case sumthing bad happen.. *CHOI*

=p

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2010-01-15T02:22:00.002+08:00

@0222hr 150110

seriously, i'm bored.. i wen online.. look @ sum frenz' pic in FB, read sum blogs den book a movie for tomolo morning.. den i dunno wat to do.. i can go to sleep, u noe.. but i dun wan to.. nothing gud is on tv.. i haf no more gud dvds to watch.. haiz...

niwae,am going to JB on monday wif Ifah.. wana go shopping den to Pasar Pandan.. think am gonna buy more drama series.. cos i got all e time in e world to watch them.. e 1st one i got for myself is Gossip Girls.. den Brothers & sisters.. very gud show,u noe... cos got Calista Flockhart.. den think am gonna get Gilmore Girls.. but i think they have more than 8 seasons ah.. bankrupt ah mcm ni.. Besides, i cant bring all in at once.. i dun wanna get caught at green channel later by my own colleagues.. hahaha!

haiya.. nothing much to say la.. so i guez i shud go to sleep now la ek.. gonna haf a looong day tomolo.. after work, me gonna watch Its Complicated wif 'Ehem'.. & its @ 0215hrs sumore.. hopefully, i wun fall asleep in e theatre.. haha!!
nitez my loves....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2010-01-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

let me tell u e 2 most dumbest things dat a mother/daughter team can do in 1 single day within a span of a few hours..

Daughter
Sleepy but still attended briefing after work.. so while trying to keep herself awake, daughter decides to sit forward,as in lean forward.. OH!! before dat,she popped a mint into her mouth.. den she lean forward wif her elbows on her knees.. den she yawns.. too lazy to close her wide-open mouth,she bend her head downwards.. & PLOP!!! e mint dropped onto e carpet floor..
Moral of e story
Dun believe anyone who says dat a mint can help u stay awake..

Mother
went on e bike as a pillion.. in a hurry cos tak sabar to meet her frenz.. den wen she's juz merely 1 metre away from e main road, she stop dad from moving any further.. & OH!! she forgot to wear helmet.. she's juz wearing her tudung..
Moral of e story
Dun be such a kan-cheong lor..

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030110

2010-01-03T04:07:00.002+08:00

i hope its still not to late to wish u guys a very HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
sorry about e lack of updates for e past 2 mths.. not dat i dun wan to but cos i cant.. my laptop was down & was too lazy to brig it for service.. hahah!! i managed to salvage my lappy only on New Year's eve.. so dun worry guys,dere will b more updates soon k?

niwae, a lot has happened for e past 2 mths.. i went to e lawyer about ayah's case den came e big wedding of e year (Lin & Dan), my dad's bdae, my negotiation to sell off Dino, planning for my Bali trip, work related issue (hot hot hot) & many more..

cant actually remember much now ah.. but dat is all history.. now we shud look forward & write about those things dat will be happening in 2010..

niwae,for e 1st time tis year, i did not go partying for e countdown (gud gal,kan? kan? kan?).. 1 reason is cos i duno where to go.. 2.I dunno who to ask since my crazy cherlyn is outta country & my group of frenz dun party anymore except for Sani,of cos. & 3. i haf to stay clean cos i'm visiting my ayah soon..
& for e 1st time too, i din even set any new year resolutions cos they r meant to be forgotten anyway..

so... all i wish for myself in 2010 is to be truely happy & live each day to e fullest.. enjoy life & haf fun instead of thinking too much.. live to love & love to life.. stop thinking bout wat others say bout me cos dey r crap! u cant please everyone in tis world & u dun haf to.. so.... i aim to be e care-free aliz.. yuHhooOoooOO!!

bring it on,2010!!
=)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-11-26T19:37:00.002+08:00

things r getting out of hand now.. kakak & me doing all i can for e family..
things happened so much & it really saddened me especially since its Hari Raya Haji.. but wif e support of abg eman, i will be strong & fight!! *whack u in e face!!*

here's a bit of update since a lot of things happened at e same time..
= Ifah's beloved cat,Benny, past away 2 days ago.. She is devastated by tis.. At least i'm 1 of e first few to noe & i hope Benny is up dere leading a happy & joyful timee,running here & dere... always haf fond memories of dat huuuge cat..
= Linda's wedding date is nearing & i went to Geylang Serai to shop for an outfit for e sanding event.. but its eve of Raya Haji so practically all e shops dere tot i'm buying for tomolo..
= Saw Sultanah's bridal is having a sale.. Shall aim for dat cute looking pink outfit which i fell in luv immediately.. think will buy on sunday..
= Adha's being targeted by dat 'najis' @ work.. he's finding fault wif every lil thing dat adha's doing.. & to make matter worst, he had a fight wif some ah-bengs passengers.. hahahha.. mat rep!!
= hoping dat particular sum1 to be strong & hopefully,it will be over soon...
= will be going to Lin's place to haf e video shoot in an hour's time.. Nur & sani is not going to be dere.. i'm sad..
= & i wanna berak now..
niwae,

SeLamat HaRi RaYa HaJi..

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2009-11-24T17:28:00.002+08:00

its true,isnt it? e phrase, 'u will realize how much u lurve someone wen u lose her..'.
all tis while, e things said, e threats given,e attention asked, all dat din mean a thing? rite wen i tot things r going 2 b ok,u do all tis... for wat,may i ask? isnt it a lil too late?
all tis leads to more confusion..
wat am i supposed to do? God, lead me e way.. Insya Allah...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-11-22T20:50:00.002+08:00

had dinner wif my whole family juz now after work.. apparently,they went to visit ayah & did a mini make-over on ayah's resting place.. cant go cos of hygiene purposes.. niwae,had a chat wif kakak & abg jo.. i'm really turning into an evil woman.. hahahhaha.. but i liiike..

niwae,its sunday & i really haf nothing to do except to wait.. wait.. wait for e return.. but at tis hour, still no news yet.. so i shall get mad & sleep it off.. hmmm... shall think bout tomolo instead.. me & ifah & haslin has a date after work tomolo!!! yeah!! so excited..

ok.. shall sleep now.. =)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-11-21T17:58:00.002+08:00

its a saturday & its my off day.. but i'm at home,feeling damn boredom & heartache.. boredom cos i've got no plans & heartache cos i miss ayah.. days passed but i still miz ayah.. enough said about crying la... e tears flow freely everytime e image of him lying in e ground plays in my mind.. Al-Fatihah...

niwae, had a wonderful breakfast @ CoffeeBeans @ JP wif kakek tis morning.. i've been wanting to do tis in a very looong time but kakek being kakek,very slow reception la he.. niwae,we chatted for a brief 15 mins bout us.. i can feel dat he's being very sincere & angry @ me.. i noe.. but i hope he understands how i feel.. enough said.

after breakfast,kakek left to meet his frenz.. i went home to meet linda.. wanted to actually print photos @ e shop but we ended up getting a manicure & pedicure before going for her pre-wedding shoot.. i'm not involved in any way buut i still got myself e mani & pedi.. hahhaha! i'm soooooo excited.. she's getting married in less than 2 weeks' time.. 1st marriage in our gang of 4.. dunno who's next.. mayb its nur & appy.. yeah!!

i'm super bored now wif nothing to do.. i can always call ratna up but i juz dun feel like going out since it has been raining on & off.. think am gonna watch sum tv & get some sleep.. laz nite, i came back home late after watching paranormal activity.. movie is exciting but i think its better if u watched it @ home.. & i'm confused cos peeps keep saying dat dere's 2 endings.. ape ni....
niwae,off to facebook now.. HaPpY weEkeNd everyone!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-11-14T22:56:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.. long time no update hor.. niwae, work has been fun lately.. guez sum of u noe y.. but tis is juz e trying period.. we'll see how it goes.. *winks winks*

i'm stressed out bout ayah's stuff again.. very tired juz even by thinking about it.. had to run to more agencies since HDB is of no use.. so shall go to e lawyer's on tues rite after my nite shift.. niwae, was cleaning out my drawer full of rubbish,den i found sumthing.. a bdae card.. not juz any bdae card but a bdae card from ayah.. it reads:

Kepaba (i wrote tis kepaba when i was younger den i dun wan dat card anymore..) : Norlizah Binti Helmee

Ayah ucapkan Selamat Hari Jadi yg ka-11. Semoga dipanjangkan umur & murah rezeki.

though it was a simple & small card,it meant e world to me cos i suddenly remembered dat ayah wud never forget my bdae year after year.. i cried wen i read e card.. & i remembered him coming over my place @ Holland Drive juz to celebrate my bdae.. & u noe wat? now i noe y i'm so excited about bdaes regardless wat age it was for cos he always make me feel so special on 2nd Feb every year.. Aliz rindu ayah.... u dunno how many million times i've said, "how i wish u were here..."..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-11-04T00:55:00.002+08:00

dunno y i haven been blogging much recently.. but i realized dat seah is worst off than me.. laz entry was about e chilli flakes.. den nowadays seldom write letters to me.. den i heard she's been wearing make-up.. WTH?? hahaha.. haven seen her wif e make-up yet.. but i'm sure she look pleasant.. juz simply pleasant. nothing else.. (its e truth,seah..ahahhah)

niwae, e other day, went for my TP & wifout telling my parents.. i keep telling them dat i'm going for my laz prac.. but thinking back,i've used dat excuse a couple of times liao.. hahahah.. & i dun think they realized dat.. niwae,i've passed my driving!! Alhamdullilah..& mama was e 1st one whom i called rite after i got my result.. I'll tell u guys more about my TP if o remember in my next entry k? Hopefully,i can rent a car soon to practice my skill on e road..

2nd Nov,me & haslin went to town to cut her bangs (oh,i cut mine too!!) & did a lil shopping.. den we headed to bugis to eat & lepakz @ Mt Faber.. mcm romantic gitu but its Haslin & me (boooring!!).. niwae, we stopped at Esso @ Telok Blangah for a peeing session.. dunno y but i took all my things except for e toilet key.. so me wanting to claim responsibility instead of juz riding off, i went in & told e lady @ e counter dat i've left e key inside e toilet.. & guess wat's e 1st thing dat she said to me..
Lady: haiyo.. den how i wanna go toilet? i haf to go to e guy's one huh?
den she proceed to complain to her male colleague & repeated e whole thing again & again..
Lady: laz time ah.. got customer bring back home e key.. but dat 1 nvr mind.. can always bring back here.. got spare.. but now u put inside den no spare.. how? u tell me how lor... No spare 1 hor..
Me losing my patience speaking in my perfect english & slang: rite now, i'm claiming responsibility for e key. so instead of u asking me how, why dun u tell me wat u wan me to do.. or perhaps u wud like to call ur manager & i can speak to him..
Male: manager ah? i think he sleep already.. laz time we haf a spare 1 but now we dun..
me obviously angry & lin din even say a word: y dun u check 1st whther u haf a spare key.. simple as dat..
male went into store.. lady still complaining bout how is she gonna to toilet..
Male shouting from inside: ok.. i handle tis.. i got e spare key.
IRRITATED,i walked out...
so u see how stupid people can get sumtimes.. they only worry about e problem instead of how to solve e problem.. i was so pissed dat i swore dat i wun go to dat esso anymore.. dumb lady!!
ok. dats my story.now i'm getting irritated juz by typing tis.

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-10-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

Juz my tot of e day..

how to turn back time or make it go slower....?
wat is to be done to make things right.....?
wen peeps say things happen for a reason,
wat is e reason...?
wen u say u've found E ONE,
wat do u mean by e one....?

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-10-26T23:49:00.002+08:00

nowadays i'm always tired.. recently, i sprained my back not bcos of i fell but bcos of my bike falling.. had a jab den 2 urut sessions so now a bit better la.. in fact,much better.. think i'm tired easily cos of e way i walked la.. deither dat or i'm too busy handling my late ayah's stuff.. tis is another headache to me..

i admit dat i'm more modern,more educated than e rest of my family (education-wise),more forward.. bcos of this, i think my ibu misinterpret this.. i juz wanna be a part of wat she's doing so i noe wats going on.. i called up all e necessary agencies to find out more about wat shud & has to be done.. yet,i'm misunderstood.. i'm sorry if i'm more forward than my elder sister... only mama understands y i'm doing tis..

i feel unappreciated & misunderstood.. i only wan ayah's things to be settled & do wats necessary.. my sista push me to be in charge.. but wat else can i say if ibu feels dat way? my only hope is dat ayah noes dat i'm doing tis for everbody but not for my own gud only.. & bcos of tis, i feel so tired.. shud i explain myself? i think i've already explained enough & its up to them on wat they wanna think..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-10-21T21:39:00.002+08:00

i miz my ayah tremendously now..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-10-20T13:29:00.002+08:00

a lot of things happened since e laz time i blogged..
shall start wif myself.. on 14th,i din realized dat my side stand was not open fully so bike fell la.. den e clever me din let go of the handle & i slowly squat down,following e motion of my falling bike.. dunno wat happened but the next day,my back hurts like hell.. fast forward a few days later,it got worst.. so on 18th went to A&E to get a jab.. u noe wat? i din even wait for 5 mins den my queue no was up.. u muz go on a sunday before 9pm.. practically like no one's dere.. so... yesterday din go work cos it was hell wen i took a shower so i noe i cant last e whole day at work.. but i am much much betta today cos yesterday a makcik urut me for more than 2hrs for $50.. cheap & she was really gud.. so i guez she will b my permanent makcik urut.. hehehe

niwae,on 18th is my ayah's 40th day kenduri.. did it at my sis place.. did i cry? yes,i did.. i remembered e day wen he was coughing out blood.. how much he was suffering.. e pain reflects on his face.. i nid to really stop crying.. Al-Fateha to ayah..
after e kenduri, i went to A&E as mentioned above. i juz stepped into my hse for 5 mins den mama received a phonecall saying dat Farhan,my step-cousin,had passed away at SGH.. so off we went to SGH & saw a lot of kakek's frenz dere.. we were all dere for the same person.. at such a young age of 26,he left tis world in an accident where he was an innocent party.. hopefully,justice will be served.. niwae,i was quite amazed at his mum's reaction.. cik esah was very calm & i din even see her cry.. all she did was to kiss her son & stroke his hair repeatedly..
Al-Fateha for Arwah Farhan.. & i hope Cik Esah & family will be strong.. Insya Allah..

& after soo long of not meeting him, i saw him at e hospital.. my dearest abg amir (step-bro).. i cried & hugged & bit him cos i miz him sooooooooo much.. & i was worried cos they said dat he went onboard for work.. i dun think so.. short hair & beefed up body, i think i noe where he went to.. but he said he dun wan bapak to worry & dats e reason y he lied about his whereabouts.. but its ok.. as long as he's alive & doing fine, i dun mind about e past.. he's my bro & i luv him.. i juz dun wan him to go back to his old days..
ok.. i'm tired of typing.. i'm going back to sleep cos e medication for my back is really powerful.. i can fall asleep within 30 mins & can sleep for 4 to 5 hrs straight.. gud ah e pills... hehehe

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-10-12T00:55:00.001+08:00

i'm bored & i dunno wat to do...

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2009-10-08T11:21:00.003+08:00

nowadays i dunno wat to think or wat to say or wat to do.. i'm lost,i think.. lost in my own world.. wen i'm happy,den i'm happy lor.. wen i'm down, den like dat lor.. i dun even noe wat interesting to blog about... teruk sia..

niwae, wanted to blog about tis e other day but i kinda forgot... see... i'm getting forgetful nowadays too.. haiz... well aniwae, on 4th Oct, i went to kubur to see ayah on his 30th day dere.. of cos i cried & all,i admit... den i went to my nenek's & my yai's place too cos it was nearby to ayah's.. oh!! i went alone,u noe.. for e 1st time ever in my life, i went to e cemetery alone.. here comes e funny story..

so tis is my attempt at drawing to u e map of e cemetery btwn those 3 people.. dunno if u can see.. but i shall explain anyway.. my bike is dat little yellow box on e far left.. i cant remember yai's plot no so i anyhow guess la.. after parking dere,i went e opposite way & walked towards Z which is 200m away from my bike.. den realizing dat i made a mistake, i u-turned & i walked back to A.. den finally i found Yai's after 15mins.. den i tried finding nenek's & walked around another 15 mins cos i forgot her plot no too.. den...(here comes e funny part)... I FORGOR WHERE I PARKED MY BIKE.. so i went back to Yai's at C den walked around D den walked around the whole of block 20,walking passed E & F & den finally found my bike.. in an attempt not to look stupid cos it was a sunday & dere's lots of people, i walked s.l.o.w.l.y as if i'm strolling in a park.. xtion jer.. padahal malu sey....
den i start my bike & passed C & D again & passed ayah's den i finally managed to get out from e cemetery.. so it was like a field trip @ e cemetery for me.. so dere... my excursion on sunday041009.. =)

NiwaE, WaNnA sAy HapPy HaPpY BIrD-DaY tO mY mOsT 'EaTaTiNg' SistA iN ICA eVEr, SeaH nUr FaEzaH... wishing u all e best in everything & anything u do & may u be in gud health always & plz.....GROW UP hor!!!!

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2009-10-07T14:04:00.002+08:00

Kelly Clarkson Already Gone
Remember all the things we wantedNow all our memories they're hauntedWe were always meant to say goodbyeEven with our fists held highIt never would've worked out rightWe were never meant for do or dieI didn't want us to burn outI didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matterWhere we take this road someone's gotta goAnd I want you to know you couldn't have loved me betterBut I want you to move on so I'm already goneLooking at you makes it harderBut I know that you'll find anotherThat doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set inPerfect couldn't keep this love aliveYou know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know that it doesn't matterWhere we take this road someone's gotta goAnd I want you to know you couldn't have loved me betterBut I want you to move on so I'm already goneI'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrongI'm already gone, already goneThere's no moving on so I'm already gone
Already gone, already gone, already goneAlready gone, already gone, already gone, yeah
Remember all the things we wantedNow all our memories they're hauntedWe were always meant to say goodbye

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-10-01T14:16:00.003+08:00

nothing much has been happening in my life lately.. well, at least nothing interesting.. oh ya.. got! got! got!! i went for F1 Grand Prix on 270909.. it was great!! i mean, i'm not an avid fan of F1 actually but i noe who's Lewis Hamilton is & how cute he is... OMG!!

went wif my sista & her 2 monsters as she got 4 free tixs from a gentleman named Mr Aaron from Standard Chartered.. & after e race, we even watched Backstreet Boys!!! live in action after 10 yrs.. i mean, i grew up listening to their song.. i even remembered dat my 1st puppy love dedicate a song from BSB 'as long as u love me' in sec 2 in sch siak.. so sweet kan?

hahaha.. niwae, we really let our hair down,sis,me & all.. but it was sure fun & a great bonding time for me & me familia..

photos r updated on my facebook.. go check it out...

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2009-09-26T04:47:00.002+08:00

forgot to mentioned tis la.. u guys shud really watched 'The Ugly Truth'.. its damn funny lor.. its really about e ugly truth about bgr & how much we deny sum facts about it, its shown in e movie.. dat day while buka-ing wif my batchmates, we decided to catch a movie & i'm so glad dat we watched tis instead of 'gamer' or sumthing.. i give it a 5 outta 5.. its superb!!

juz now after work, me & adha went to top up petrol at JB den head down to Yishun Dam cos sum of e guys were dere.. & while we were talking, i realized dat i'm so misunderstood at work.. sum peep did asked me if i'm interested to go to a 'tough' area where checking of vehicles is involved.. apparently, dey tot i'm too ladylike & weak to do such tedious job... & wen i mentioned dat i wanna do interrogating, sum1 mentioned dat i'm too lady-like again!! Oh God!! i am soooooo misunderstood..
yes.. i admit dat at work, i'm very happy & bubbly & smiley.. but dey dunno e real me.. i can be nasty if i wan to lor.. its juz dat wen u r sitting down in e counter for hours, stamping ur chops away, y be grumpy,rite? juz be positive about ur work & be merry lor.. & by doing tis, dey tot dat i can't handle or carry out e 'tough' bit of e job.. WTF!!!? was quite shocked about tis la.. i din noe dat i am a lady-like person myself.. kept asking myself: is tis y i din get transferred to other areas? wen i'm given a job, i do it well.. but bcos of tis, it hinders my chances of doing other things? haiz............
Guez i muz act tougher @ work? dunno la...

niwae, tomolo, Sat, me going to jalan raya wif my sista's family to my ayah's side.. sumthing dat we din noe for about 4 yrs now.. but since kakak mentioned it, so y not? & its my off day & its so obvious dat kakek's not going out wif me..AGAIN!! & on sunday, i'm going for e F1 grandprix!! yeah.. kakak got an extra ticket & she's bringing me!! yeah!!! i so wanna see lewis hamilton in person even though i dunno much about F1.. hahahah! if i can la... so..... wish me luck!!

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2009-09-23T19:03:00.002+08:00

2nd day raya was a very tiring day for me.. after waking up 10am & jalaning e whole day, i still haf report back to work for nite shift.. but its ok.. its a yearly event so cant complain much..

niwae, i dunno if i blog about tis before.. but e other day, i drove illegaly in jb.. hahahha!! testing my driving skill jer.. its fun but definitely my passengers were scared.. but i dun care.. it was definitely fun.. i wanna do it again..
& speaking about driving, i did not attend any prac for e past 2 weeks due to my dad's stuuf & raya.. in e end, juz now wen i went, my techniques all corrupted la.. & i got e sleeping instructor again.. but since he dunno me & seeing how bad my skill was, he managed to stay awake.. hahhaa.. now i'm so scared.. my TP is soon & yet my skills went from ok to bad now.. really need to buck up & practice more (probably in jb).. hahahah..

niwae, dats all for today.. i'm going out to teman lin to send her mum to work.. & i did not meet kakek on my off day today.. wats new,rite?

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

2009-09-21T01:06:00.004+08:00

Juz came back celebrating e 1st day of Syawal wif my family.. its tiring but i cant get to sleep.. nothing new to say but ya, i'm thinking of ayah.. laz nite while e takbir was playing on e radio, i was trying so hard to distract myself by sewing e buttons on my kebaya.. but i cudnt help & tears kept falling & falling of my face while sewing.. guez mama & bapak saw me cried but they din say anything.. i think they understand.. after dat i went out to meet a fren of mine on e excuse that i wana play bunge api, i had a chance to express how i felt bout ayah, about how i think i caused him hurt & finally cried my heart out.. did nothing but juz cried & cried.. i muz admit i felt really better after all dat crying...

today while trying to take a pic wif my aunt, a cousin of mine said sumthing dat really was rude & hurtful.. but i guez she din realized it cos she's young & i scolded her for it anyway.. but tears formed in my eyes.. wat she said was true but i din imagine dat it caused hurt wen she said, "kecian si anak yatim ni nak ambek gambar dgn mak aku.." i never tot dat word can hurt me.. but i'm not gonna spoilt my Hari Raya.. Its a day of celebration so i brushed it aside..

niwae, on tis special day, i wud like to say Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim frenz.. i wud also like to ask for forgiveness as we begin a new chapter in our life today.. Hope u guys will haf fun & joy in celebrating Syawal for e next 30 days..

SeLaMaT HaRi RaYa AiDiLfItRi

MaAf ZaHiR & BaTin

(tired face after whole day of working & jalan raya)

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...

2009-09-17T00:00:00.003+08:00

everytime i wana blog about sumthing, my heart juz sank.. e heartache on e day ayah went away came back.. i dunno y but it hurts e same as day 1.. but wen i'm around frenz, i'm a normal,laughing, joking & smiley aliz.. at work is where u can meet e 'noproblem' aliz.. but i am strong.. dat is wat i tell myself everytime tears start forming in my eyes..
i keep myself busy by watching lots tv, talking on e phone, surfing e net, going out wif frenz.. cos i noe ayah will feel e pain if i cry.. so ayah, forgive me if i caused u hurt..

on a ligter note, i did wat i wanted a looong time ago.. i din do it bcos of mama back den.. but thinking of how i put ayah in pain while being in e hospital, being poked countless times by those big needles on his arms & leg, i did it anyway.. i confessed to mama after 2 days of hiding it from her.. she was mad.. i can see it from her facial expression but she was quite cool about it.. after a few mins of babbling, she talked to me like normal.. i noe i've hurt her feelings by doing it but i hope she understands.. she doesnt noe y i did it.. i told her i will take it out 1 day but not now.. so now, everytime i accidently hit it, it reminded me of ayah's pain.. i'm sorry ayah if i caused u a lot of pain before u passed on..

dunno y i logged in in e 1s place.. think i wanted to blog about sumthing else but i kinda forgot.. nvr mind.. if i remember, i will it on e next post.. niwae, Hari Raya is coming soon.. i never buy any new baju kurung so i'm using laz yr's.. luckily,mama nvr scold me for not buying.. in fact,i think she understands.. i sooo do not wan to hear e Takbir raya.. but i'm working morning on e eve so i will be at home.. i hope i wun cry den.. but to all, Selamat Hari Raya.. it is afterall, a celebration for all after having fast for a mth.. a celebration for all to be merry wif families & frenz.. for me, i wun get to ask for forgiveness from ayah which i've planned to reconcile wif him tis yr.. but wat to do? all i can say is dat i'm filled wif regret..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

outz wif my frenz..

2009-09-13T17:50:00.006+08:00

thanks to facebook,we found each other again.. after 13yrs of MIA, we finally mit up at Marina Square for a buka session.. e students of Keng Seng Primary Sch yr 1996.. though only 7 of us came, it was definitely nice to see childhood frenz again.. Heiqal, azli, azri, yan, khaimil, azlina & me were dere..

niwae, tot it will be awkward & i did haf reservations about going.. but in e end, it was a nite filled wif laughters & reminising about about e gud old daes in our brown & beige uniform.. hahhahaha..

KSPS Yr 96

looking forward to more meet-ups soon.. hopefully,wif more people around.. =)

my 2nd morning was spent wif my irritating yet beloved sista, Seah anak Fuad.. we did wat we wanted at Penisula.. den we went shopping & buka at PizzaHut Marina Square..(yes,i noe.. i went to Marina square 2 days straight.. but i go wof diff peeps wat..) finally, sumone shared e same excitement wen i suggested PizzaHut.. i can never convinced kakek to eat PizzaHut cos he thinks Sarpino's is e best.. bluegh!! after buka, we shopped again at John Little.. & i din managed to convinced seah to buy a bra set for herself ah.. think i'm gonna get her e cute cute PC or Warner Bros bra set for her bdae ah.. hahahah.. & force her to wear it in front of me.. sorry seah, no dogs from me to u tis yr.. =)

e food dat we had at PizzaHut

Seah tak sabar... as usual...

me & my crayfish pasta.. (eeeuw.. eyebags..)

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Day 7 is harded than i tot

2009-09-10T02:31:00.002+08:00

here i am crying in front of my lappy,thinking of ayah.. i'm like a duck in e calm waters.. relax & calm above water but legs struggling to stay afloat.. i'm fine at work or wif frenz around but e reality hit me wen i'm alone.. its hard.. damn hard.. my heart aches.. very very much... i guess its ok to grieve once in a while.. e passing of a distant relative,sumtimes u can forget.. but e fact dat i wun see my dearest dad ever again, it stung like a bee through my heart.. i try to be strong in front of people cos i hate to show negative emotions but seriously, it pains me to show dat i'm strong.. its worst wen i hear e festive songs cos i seriously dun feel like celebrating.. i haven even go to e bazaar or bought a costume yet..

a few frenz asked me if i regret for not talking to ayah for 2 yrs.. yes i do.. its called ego.. but wat can i do now? he's gone.. but i shall remember my good times wif him before tis 2 yrs.. i lurve him dearly so much so i tot i wud be betraying him if i called my step dad,bapak.. since young, i haf been e 1 diligently going to his house,calling & talking to him.. he's e one who taught me & my sis to sing "ooo, begini rasa.. hatiku sengsara..." old song dat he lurve so much dat he wud record on his cassette tape recorder everytime we sing it.. & he wud play it over & over again wen we go over his place.. a lot more memories in which i remembered dat he never lay a finger on us, never raise his voice.. he is dat caring & loving & forgiving.. so i'm sure wherever his soul is resting, he wud forgive me for all e mistakes dat i've done..

life have to move on, i noe.. so i shall try to as happy as i can be ok.. i can do it.. i noe i can & i will..

Ayah, aliz sayang ayah & aliz akan slalu doakan ayah.. Al-Fatihah..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

E depart of my loving father,Helmee Bin Sohor

2009-09-08T12:03:00.003+08:00

3rd Sep 2009 @ 1730hrs SGH Ward54 Rm13 Bed10

my heart is filled wif regret on y i din go 2 e hospital straight after work.. Instead, i came back home,thinking of resting for a while b4 heading dere.. i din get to see ayah as he takes his laz breath but ibu did mentioned dat he went peacefully.. i din haf time to grieve or e reality of him who haf left tis world forever haf not sunk in yet.. but was busy wif e paperwork & rushing here & dere..

4th Sep was his burial day.. Alhamdullilah,everything went smoothly.. Unexpectedly, a few frenz came down & i was quite surprised & thankful for their visit.. Tis day was e day dat my tears cud not stop flowing.. it was worst at e cemetery.. e tot of ayah lying down in e ground,not to be seen again forever suddenly hit me.. i cudnt control myself wen was asked to pour e water over his covered grave.. e tot of how he always say dat he wants to be dere for my wedding, e tot of endless prayers dat he will say for me, e tot of having e hugs & kisses from him, all e things dat he used to do for me is now gone.. gone forever.....

my heart still aches,it really do.. my tears still flow, i wudnt lie.. my mind thinks of him,but of cos.. i dun think anyone can tell u e remedy of a heartache but i haf to accept e fact dat he's gone.. Allah lebih menyayangi Ayah.. Aliz redha.. everything dat happened is for a reason.. i noe i'm strong,Insya Allah i'll get thru tis.. Insya Allah..

here, i wud like to say thank u to all frenz, colleagues,family who was dere by Ayah's side.. Thank u for e wishes & e donations.. Thank u for e smses & calls.. i really dunno how else to say my thanks to u guys.. Now i noe dat i can really rely on u guys & thank u for being wif me on my hardest day in my life.. Doakan roh ayah dicucuri rahmat & ayah diletakkan bersama org2 yg beriman.. Amin.. Al-Fatihah...

Helmee Bin Sohor

20th Apr 1950 - 3rd Sep 2009

In my prayers,always..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

ayah.............

2009-08-29T05:46:00.002+08:00

aliz tau ayah marah dgn aliz pasal aliz pakse ayah pegi hospital.. tapi niat aliz baik.. bukan maksud aliz nak seksa ayah, bukan aliz dengki & khianat dgn ayah tapi pasal aliz sayang ayah.. aliz harap jauh di sudut hati ayah, ayah faham knape aliz buat ni semua untuk ayah.. aliz harapkan yg terbaik untuk ayah.. aliz cume buat ape yg termampu, aliz usahakan untuk ayah dapat rawatan.. tapi yg lain,masih jugak terletak pada ayah samaada ayah nak pulih atau tidak..
aliz harap ayah maafkan aliz.. klau ayah nak marah aliz, aliz terima.. tapi ayah harus kuatkan diri untuk baik & terima rawatan yg diberi.. bukan menolak pertolongan.. kasih sayang aliz pada ayah, hanya Allah jer yg tau.. sama mcm ayah ckap dgn aliz, sayang ayah terhadap aliz,hanya Tuhan jer yg tau..

aliz mohon supaya lembut hati ayah menerima bantuan doktor.. aliz harapkan ayah boleh maafkan aliz.. aliz mintak ayah nampak betapa ramai yg dtg semua sayang dgn ayah,bukan dengki dgn ayah.. aliz doakan hanya yg terbaik untuk ayah.. Insya Allah dgn izin Tuhan, ayah akan kembali sihat.. Insya Allah..

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82) My dads

2009-08-28T15:59:00.002+08:00

Woke up early & sleeping super late.. Dats wat i've been doing these past few days.. to make matter worst, both my dads r admitted to e hospital.. on e same day..

after 2 yrs of not meeting ayah, got a call from kakak saying dat ayah is vomitting out blood.. i admit i was still contemplating on whether i shud go or not.. it took me awhile after talking to a few frenz dat i found e courage to see him.. wen i arrived wif Lin & Kakek, ayah was in a terrible state & he's still din wanna go to e hospital.. With e help of abg eman,kak siti,lin,dan,kakek,ayah rasul & a few banglas, we managed to carry ayah out & into e hospital..

e doctor told me a few undesired things but i hoping for e best... Insya Allah ayah akan selamat dgn berkat doa semua.. He went through scope & scanning & we r awaiting for e result..

Bapak pulak kena tahan after doing his brain scan after results came out yesterday.. apparently they found a blood leakage in e brain.. So far e docs said its only a little bit so hopefully they can do sumthing about it.. But it has nothing to do wif e surgery dat he had laz mth.. tis is a new thing..

i am at lost.. seriously.. i've never felt so much pain in my heart.. my 2 beloved dads r sick & lying in e hospital & dere's nothing dat i can do to help.. i am lucky dat i haf e opportunity of having 2 fathers who loved me unconditionally.. Frenz, pray for my dads to get better ok.. Insya Allah, everything will go well.. Insya allah...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

81) Movies!!

2009-08-24T02:21:00.002+08:00

I forgot to mentioned dat a week ago, i met up wif Nizah, my biatch from SLS after 6 looong mths to catch up on old time & to lepakz... In e end, we had our fav starbucks & since its not morning, we cant haf our fav Coffee Beans breakfast.. back in e days,after our night shift, we wud always go down to Wisma's Coffee Beans to haf our breakfast & chat all e way till noon.. den we'll go home & sleep & meet again at 10pm for work.. how much i missed those days spent wif nizah...

on tis day, we went ahead & watched The Hangover.. OMG!! e movie was great!! was actually thinking of watching it wif kakek.. but since he dun wanna meet me, den i went ahead & watched it wif Nizah.. Think he's still sored about it cos a few days ago, he did passed a sarcastic remarks bout me watching The Hangover wifout him.. but being e gud gf, i bought him e dvd lor,juz so he can watch it at home by himself... LOL...

niwae, e movie was wicked!! watch it guys.. its hilarious.. & The Proposal.... watched it wif kakek on saturday & it was super funny.. come on, its sandra bullock,man... my fav actress ever.. she is super stunning in tis movie & story line = perfect... & guess wat? nizah asked me to watch tis movie wif her tis coming tuesday.. i dunno wat to say to her,man.. hahhaha... well, i juz its a tit for a tat btwn nizah & kakek... i'm stuck them both,being their movie partner... LOL...

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80) driving lessons

2009-08-19T21:45:00.003+08:00

had driving yesterday & today.. funny thing was, i got e same instructor for both lessons.. if u guys dunno, den i shall not say where my driving centre is & who's e instructor.. lets juz share my story for ur own knowledge..

niwae, in my group,dere's 6 instructors.. outta which i have only seen 5.. niwae, 1 likes to dig his nose, 1 like to blow his nose, 1 likes to talk cock & sumtimes sleep,1 likes to sleep a lot & 1 is a mute.. damn.. juz wat did i do to deserve tis? arg..

for e pst 2 lesson, my instr fell asleep wifout telling me wat to do next.. so i juz anyhow makes turns lor.. den i brake abruptly & i speed up suddenly & i also beat red lights.. how's dat?!?!? & today, i deliberately make a wrong turn & we ended up in cck.. hahahah...

i dun wanna complain cos i noe wat complains can do & i haf to face my group of ah-peks for a few mths more... so just wat do i haf to do? tried to engage small talks wif them but still they fall asleep.. i think if tis goes on, i need to say sumthing.. i dun pay $60 for every lesson for e instr to fall asleep on me.. haiz..

niwae, on a lighter note, adik has posted up e pics for e karaoke nite.. very funny siak.. i wanna post up a pic here but due to confidentiality, i cant post evryone's pic.. so here's e crazy gal gang & 1 idiot...

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79) recent updates

2009-08-17T16:48:00.002+08:00

finally got to meet kakek after 2 weeks.. dunno y it took dat long to meet him but ya, 2 weeks to meet my bf.. WTH?!? but he's busy wif work & sch & soccer & all so hardly haf time for me.. i'm taking it slow,trying to adapt to e time limit dat we haf.. sumhowe, i reckon dat i'm not having a hell of gud time.. but wat to do? haf to encourage him lor.. & i'm not exactly supportive.. hahhaha

niwae, juz had a few hours of sleep cos laz nite was great!!!!!!! other than a few glitches, everything else was fun.. had e priviledge of my colleagues' company for a karaoke session-adek's farewell... she's leaving for ports soon hence e outing... quite a number of us squeezed inside dat 1 small room but it was chaotic especially wen haslin's talent.. hahhaha.. in malay term: halsin suke merosakkan lagu... hahaha.. but it was difinitely one of my most enjoyable nite in 2009.. karaoke & supper & i reached home at 5plus... OMG!! but lucky for me, no calls from mama.. hahhaha...

after having dat super late nite, its my off day today.. din get to sleep much cos had to rush to work to hand deliver my mum's passport.. dunno wat's wrong wif her but she brought my dad's instead.. arg.. super irritated wif her & though i lurve her, i soooo hated her dat moment.. but all's done & now i'm bored at home wif nothing to do.. i've juz realized dat i din take any driving lesson today cos its a monday.. a perfect day for me & kakek to go out cos he has no sch.. but laz min, he got a make up class so dat explains y i'm at home on my off day..

ARGH!!! ok.. i'm gonna try & catch sum slep now.. gotta wake up at 4am tomolo for my morning shift...
btw, i sang a dangdut song yesterday in front of everyone.. hahhahaha...
*** senggol senggolan.. cubit cubitan... aku menari... ko petik gitar........... ***

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

pics of National Day weddings...

2009-08-17T16:15:00.006+08:00

i told u dat i've got a lot of weddings...

78) more weddings.......

2009-08-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

my weekends r filled up with numerous weddings to attend ever since july.. week after week, its weddings, weddings & more weddings.. not dat i'm complaining but love is in e air & i'm jealous.. yes.. i admit.. i'm jealous... Bride & groom all pretty pretty.. take photos.. extremely beautiful dais.. auw................. i noe mine is not any time soon.. dats for sure..

niwae, tis weekend is supposed to be everything & anything about Singapore's 44th bdae.. but i haf 2 weddings to attend to.. 1 is a friend of mine & another one is my colleague.. more like my cayang @ work.. hahaha.. not dat i haf anything wif him but wen i came in on my 1st day in Alpha, he's e one who caught my attention.. he's not e Brad Pitt or Johnny Depp looks but normal ah.. but he's so polite & soft-spoken & very well-mannered ah.. e gal who's marrying him is a lucky gal.. but dun worry.. i do not haf anything going on wif him.. i juz tot if i can bring a guy like him home, my mum dun haf to worry about anything, i guess.. hahhahah

niwae, i'm tired & am going to bed soon.. juz finished my afternoon shift.. another afternoon to battle den its my OFF DAY!!! yuhoo.. but ya.. i haf to go to 2 weddings & den i hope sum1 will ask me out to do the national day celebration, i hope.. since kakek will be busy wif his uncle's wedding, plz God, make sumone ask me out...

LOLs... =p

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77) pics from loong looong ago

2009-08-04T00:57:00.001+08:00

nah... not e one u r expecting but juz sum random photos from my hp...

sum idiot who vomiited in a bag & left in on my driveway.. yes.... a car did run over it & spilled out e contents...

was bored waiting for my dad to be out from e Ops theatre so i played around wif watver's around me...

e view down below my dad's ward..

i dunno which parent haf e heart to name their son tis.. its a real name, guys.. & tis guy is a wrinkled up old man liao.. so i din laughed at him lor...

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76) how do u feel...

2009-08-03T20:47:00.003+08:00

u come to work & found several love letters in ur pigeon hole..
suddenly 1 of it says tis:

Dear Ugly,

Aku rindu ko, BODOH!!

xoxo: beautiful....

how wud u feel? tis note played wif my emotions..

now dat stupid b&*#% wanna challenge wif me over muhaimin...
bring it on, SUCKER!!

(tis post is dedicated only to seah nur faezah, anak kepada fuad seah)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

75) UP, UP & away.........

2009-08-03T19:56:00.002+08:00

sorry lin.. went & watched.. so.... i'm not even sorry dat i din invite u.. LOL!!

niwae, UP was nice.. wait.. excellent... its not all about colours & laughter.. in fact, i think e movie played wif my feelings till tears nearly fell off my cheeks.. its super emotional la... i lurve e character 'Russell'.. he's super cute.. but i like e old man more bcos of his love for his 'Ellie'.. go watch it & u'll noe y...

i had such a busy weekend dat i'm so super tired sey.. movie wif kakek, den go for Jun & Man's solemnization & rewang at my aunt's place... den sunday, its my late grandparents' kenduri arwah after work.. so its super super tiring..
& u noe wat? at 12midnight,my neighbour's kid was stomping or stamping or watever it is call, right above my bed.. OMG!!! e noise!!! i feel like going up & smacked whoever is looking after him.. come on lor... its a sunday midnight.. people need to sleep for work lor.. it happens every other night.. at first i tot its sum supernatural thingy but stamping of feet? i dun think its e being from e other world.. so angry but mama said it will only make matter worst if i go up.. so i finally went to sleep only wen i'm really really sleepy.. & i woke up at 4am for OT.. darn!!

niwae, i will post up pics from my HP soon.. 1 of it is a helpless & poverty-sicken child who was caught eating in e corner of my counter DC1 to be specific.. once i upload, u guess who la...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

74) mum's sick & we'r ok =)

2009-07-28T10:25:00.004+08:00

my mum scared me on saturday cos we had to rush her to e hospital cos of high fever.. well, iniatially,my dad had fever during e weekday for about 2 days.. he got better.. den my mum had fever & she went to e doc & got 7 days MC.. (i dun understand y she took e MC wen she's a perm housewife.) niwae, 2 days later, her fever shot to 40C...

i've juz reached my fren,Diana's wedding barely 3 mins den my mum called me to go home & sent her to e hospital.. terperanjat beruk sey.. before i left, i asked her if she was feeling ok.. but she juz murmured "ok ok,", so i went out la.. tot i can meet my fellow HSSonians at Diana's place.. but i mananged to meet her though.. cos i went to e guy's side which is at Toh Guan (near my place) first & thinking of following the bride & groom back to Diana's place..

but of cos, i din make it to Serangoon cos i went back home after eating at e place & sent my mum to NUH (with Lin's help).. sat dere for a whole 5hrs,drip & blood test before we can finally see her,walking happily towards us.. Alhamdullilah, its not H1N1 but juz e common fever bug.. but today, she's back to e helpless state cos her fever is playing e hide & seek game.. sumtimes, it goes way up high but sumtimes it go down abit.. so hopefully, she's gonna get better soon cos i can't stand her.. very super sensitive & irritating.. LOL!! dun tell her dat k? & she keep calling me to get home fast.. (think she's using her excuse of being sick to make me sit at home ah...)

niwae,me juz book an anniversary gift for kakek.. no, its not a hotel room... but an exclusive sneak preview of UP.. we r going for a carnival wif balloon sculpting, face-painting & also photo-taking... den off to e sneak preview in 3D.. yuhooo... its gonna happen tis Sat,1st Aug!! can't wait!!but i think he's gonna be a bit sceptical cos its gonna start at 1130am (cos e 3pm show already fully booked).. hahahha.. dun care!! book already mah!! so he must be on time..

YEAH!!! we r going to be e 1st ones to catch tis movie!! YuhOoOO!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

73) shocking news

2009-07-28T10:12:00.002+08:00

if u guys read e papers today, u'll be surprised at e sentences passed on to e 3 guys who literally tortured their cell mate.. 16-19yrs of imprisonment & 16-22 stroke of e cane.. OMG!! all e 3 young men will be in their late 30s by e time they come.. throughout e trial, no faces were shown & i kept guessing who these people r.. & today, spread across all newspapers of all languages available in Singapore are 3 young malay muslim men..

i am quite sad & disappointed at their behaviour.. sodomising, torturing, beating, punching & forcing M to eat faeces r definitely acts that are condoned by Allah.. i'm not saying i'm a pious & religious person.. no, i'm not.. but how crazy or disturbing can u get by carrying out these acts? i'm sure these guys r bright & intelligent young men, considering their proper use of english during trials.. & they even represent themselves instead of engaging a lawyer.. even the Justice felt disappointed & he also believed dat they r an intelligent lot.. he even advised them to look forward wen they r released later because he believed they can succeed in life.. tis is juz an foolish act dat they have to pay dearly..

well, wats been done cannot be undone.. wat we can do is to learn from tis.. i hope those young men out dere can learn from this episode as to control their anger & always think before you do anything.. *same goes for me too,actually* =p

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72) unexpected twist of event happened

2009-07-24T19:19:00.002+08:00

e day din go well as i planned... bought myself a pair of puma shoes as retail therapy... & a sleeping bag for work as my blankets haf been used by numerous people till i can't recognized its color anymore...

dat unexpected thing happened & i'm back home at 6pm.. wow!! super early considering dat i'm out of e house only at 140pm..

on e way home, i realized dat i can b quite a 'hulk' wen i'm angry.. my hairs on my arms can go all straight up & my body became extremely hot.. i guess its a matter of time before i transformed into hulk.. except dat i wanna be a yellow hulk instead..

history repeated itselfs, juz like e song 'walk away'... i guess no one haf e courage to lash out at me for my undesirable anger.. i dunno y but i did try.. i've tried & tested my patience to e limit. i guess today was e laz straw & dat explains y i rode home like a mad bull... i noe dat dere r areas where i shud improved on but i need time.. like how i've given u time,dats wat i need.. i dun wanna say 'mayb its not meant to be' wifout trying... so here i am,reflrecting on wat went wrong & wat is needed to be done.. but i really do not need my patience to be tested as it has been tested enough.. thankyouverymuch.

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

71) where to go for a date?

2009-07-24T00:12:00.003+08:00

its 1215am & i have asked kakek to bring me out for a real date tomolo since its my off day.. all tis while, we haf only been running errands & dats it.. nowadays, my off day falls on his sch days so its kinda hard to spend time together,especially since he's a frequent 'late-comer'..

but where to go? we practically run out of place to go liao.. weather's too hot for outdoor activities.. i dun wanna go window-shopping cos i'll end up shopping.. i dun wanna sit at home all day watching tv (we can do dat wen we'r 65).. so wat else? sungei buloh? done.. fish spa? done.. ear candling? done. pulau ubin? done. prawn fishing? done. marina barrage? done. movies? done. makaning? everytime. wild wild wet? done. sentosa? done. bowling? done. JB? done. batam? done. motorshop visits? done.

OMG!! tomolo must go bike shop AGAIN!! kakek wanna fix his pipe liao.. wonder how long will we need to stay dere... arg!! i need to send dino for inspection too.. HAIYO!!! so many things, so little time.. again, its a full day of running errands again,i'm sure...

niwae,i'm off to bed now.. slept only 2 1/2hrs & i woke up at 330am & cant sleep since.. went OT at 8am & worked till 10pm.. can't get OT for train so i'm home early.. now i need to catch sum beauty sleep cos i need to look after my neighbour's son tomolo & send him to sch at noon.. dun ask y but my mum offered to help.. in e end, she had sumthing to do & i haf to cover for her.. grrrrr.. it means lesser time wif kakek tomolo.. =(

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

70) e next formula 1 driver (only listen 2 e gud stuff).. hahahha

2009-07-21T22:43:00.004+08:00

came back from work tis morning & went to e doc wif lin.. sore-eyes & got 4 days MC.. bedek siak.. think e doc is juz guilty cos his clinic opens at 8am but he reached only at 930am.. boring jer nak kena tunggu lame2...

niwae,went for my 1st ever driving lesson.. wanted to cancel it cos i'm super sleepy but den juz went ahead cos i have paid for it & boy, am i happy or wat... i got e gerekz instuctor & he's very very funny & out-going.. always like to disturb people & always asking me to sound e horn if sumone in front is slow..

mayb i'm 1st time lucky.. bsok bsok dpt yg fierce nyer,mampus aku.. wat to do wen all e instructor in my group r all e liao ah-peks? but i'm going for e next one next week so hopefully, i can do it.. juz now was not dat gud cos i was practically sweating cos i was told by lin dat i dun need to drive on my 1st lesson but i did lor.. e moment he noe i haf a bike license, he say he's lazy to drive & he trust me.. menggigil siol tangan pegang steering wheel tu.. maklum la, slalu jadi passenger jer.. hahahha.. but i'm looking forward to learn more, fast!! hopefully, i can drive my parents around soon.. =)

Insya-Allah..

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69) updates

2009-07-20T10:57:00.007+08:00

its funny cos i haf lots of things to update everyday but e tot of sitting in front of my lappy for hours juz turns me off.. but i'm to do it now...

niwae, over e past week, had supper wif ada, huda & seah.. its been a long time since we ate together & so we went to alif at BB (a new venue since we always go to Bukit Timah).. turns out dat its a RONG RONG decision so food not dat nice, seats not comfy & e environment juz seemed uninteresting.. OH YA!! e service, not gud.. think e waiters dere r weird.. so...... during supper, seah decided to catch e movie Haunting in Connecticut on e saturday.. but being e 'eatating' other half of mine, she cancelled it on e very laz min on friday BECOS : "she-forgot-she-needs-to-go-to-Ikea-wif-mummy..."but all's good.. cos linda invited me along for e same movie on later dat day..

hmmmmmm.... OH!! & on my off day, me & kakek ate at Hans River @ EastPoint & we did e ear candling thingy.. we were juz talking about it e other day & saw a promotion on it while walking around.. so we decided to give it a try.. we were so excited about it dat we signed up for a package.. hahahha..

Niwae, attended 2 wedding yesterday.. had to rush cos both frens r guys' side & i'm so confused on which one to go to first.. in e end, went to Abg Zamir's place & we caught him before he moves off to e bride's side & den to Danial's.. looks like i haf more wedding to go to... i wonder wen will be my turn.. *hint hint to dada* hahhaha.. but i guess it will not be anytime soon cos i need to do sum stuff in my life first..

niwae, pics of both wedding...

Abg Zamir (HSS)

Danial & Jaja (ICA)Selamat Pengantin Baru..

Semoga Berbahagia Slalu Hingga Ke Anak Cucu..

Insya-Allah

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68) daddy dearest

2009-07-11T14:13:00.002+08:00

from my laz entry, i managed to get urgent leave from my SAC.. & i did use it to my advantage.. got daddy admitted into hospital den i went off for kakek's frenz chalet den back to hospital for nearly a week.. since 4th, i have been in e hospital from morning till night, accompanyin mama..

niwae, Alhamdullilah cos e surgery is over.. after 4hrs in OT, dad finally came out from e OT room wif his head bandaged.. & while he's still grougy wif e drugs, he managed to give me a 'peace' sign.. went to e ICU for 1 day & back to e normal ward e next...

dad juz got back home yesterday & was relieved cos right now, it means dat he is not having any negative reaction to e ops & we r juz waiting for e brain to get used to it & slowly hoping dat e arteries will be chanelling blood to e brain very soon.. as for now, he can't stand for too long & his speech is no quite good.. but we r told to wait.. & hopefully, he'll get better in time to come..

syukur alhamdullilah, dat e ops went smoothly.. Praises to Allah.. & thanks to my frenz who gave me their well-wishes.. TY!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

67) e day is finally here...well, almost here la...

2009-07-01T20:02:00.002+08:00

my dad's operation date is finally made known by e surgical team this afternoon.. he is going to be admitted tis Sat,4th & ops itself will be on monday morning,6th.. as much as u guys noe, it is a brain surgery & involves the insertion of a new vein.. it is risky but i'm hoping for e best.. & if everything goes as planned, Insya Allah he will get better (hopefully) & reduces e chances of getting a more severe stroke (like its not severe enough like dat...).. well,e laz line was wat e doctor said, not me..

yesterday, me & lin were washing my MaMan & DiNo under my void deck wif bapak & kakek helping at e laz min of waxing.. & i cant imagine e image of bapak going in to e ops room.. to me, he is still e strong man dat i can rely on for my everything,despite his sickness.. Ya Allah, plz let tis ops be a successful one.. Plz do not let anything happen to my dad..

niwae, i cant think much to blog since i got e news.. i dunno if i can get urgent leave.. i dunno if i shud juz take MC if i cant take urgent leave.. i dunno if i shud talk to my DO or my SAC.. God!! got so many things to think about... i mean, besides thinking if e ops will be a successful or not.. my head is gonna explode soon, i think.. i'm scared.. i am seriously scared.. i dunno if i shud be scared now or i shud be scared later... i really dunno wat to feel..

kakek's in sch now.. & i'm juz looking forward to going to work so dat i can escape from e reality of home.. i'll keep u updated on his journey to his ops soon ya.. right now, i really need sum sleep..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

66) ...

2009-06-26T11:09:00.004+08:00

i noe i haven blogged in a long time.. too lazy la.. niwae, went to P. Ubin after 10 yrs of not being dere.. went to Alpha & Kakek joined us too.. really appreciate dat he wanna come though i noe it was gonna be hard for him to mingle around.. but i think wif apid being dere, it helped him to ease down a bit.. overall, it was definitely a great trip though my arse hurts from all dat cycling.. i think its a gud way to bond with each other.. pictures can be found on my facebook soon,hmmmmm, i think... lazy la...

had seafood wif kakek for dinner after cycling cum rambutan cum durian finding trip @ Teh Tarik JW.. but 2 days ago, i had seafood again wif, guess who... my dearest long-lost-irritating-pen-pal-forever-but-hardly-see Seah!! we had 3 chilli crabs, sambal pari, kang kong & tom yam soup.. & guess wat? Seah can really finish up e crabs... i dunno wats e word used for lunch cum dinner.. dats wat we had.. too late of a lunch but too early for a dinner... hahhahah...

the reason y i wanted to blog was actually cos of e Late Michael Jackson.. i had chills wen i saw e news on CNA.. as much as my generation do not wanna admit, i'm sure he has at least a bit of impact in ur growing life.. for me, i simply LURVE him.. as a kid, my wish was to meet him & hug him.. hahahha.. lame but its true.. & at P.6, i cried in a cassette selling shop cos i really wanted the 2 cassette limited edition HIStory album (if i'm not mistaken).. a few days before e drama in dat shop, i've already cried my heart out, literally begging my mum to buy me dat, everytime i saw e advertisement on tv.. but dat album was borrowed by my sis's ex-bf & never returned since.. i think i din speak to my sis for a while bcos she refused to call dat guy to get my album back... i hated her for dat... hmmmph!!

niwae, despite all e negative issues & controversies dat he had created, millions of people worldwide feel e pain when e news was broadcasted.. we, e fans, forgived him, irregardless of any of his so-called 'wrong-doings'.. to Michael Jackson, u r always my King of Pop.. Thank you for giving us e beautiful music dat connects us regardless of our skin colour that touches many hearts all over e world.. Rest in Peace, my Idol.... & i'm proud to admit dat i'm a HUGE fan of u,anytime...

Michael Jackson

1958 - 2009

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65) we finally had E talks

2009-06-13T13:10:00.003+08:00

to begin wif, 'we' refer to my frenz.. thank God, e air is cleared.. i'm glad i brought up e issue cos i finally know wat my frenz r doing & at least we haf a better understanding of y we do e thing dat we did.. i certainly understand dat my frenz r protective of me & my relationship & they do wan me to b happy.. like they say, 'rambut same hitam, hati lain-lain', which simply means i may or may not agree on how they go about doing it.. but i know dat they do luv me,all e same & i noe dat i can turn to my frenz anytime for their support..

another 'we' refers to kakek & me.. we finally had E talk after soo loong.. nothing concrete but at least i noe where i stand & whether i need to prepare for e future.. i think both of us r not ready in a way or another, for whatsoever reasons eg financially, emotionally etc.. both of us r preoccupied wif e things going on rite now in our lifes dat IT is not gonna happen any time soon..

Insya Allah one day we'll b united but its all in God's hand.. wat we can do is plan but He decides it all.. watever happens now, i felt relieved wen we had E talk.. i think he has doubts on whether i am ready or not... but wat i believe in is a person will never b ready for anything until he/she is thrown into e situation.. & as for me, i noe i can do it if i wanna do it.. so for now, i really need to change my life, at least bit in terms of how i see things, how i do things, to be better prepared..

anyway, its a saturday but i'm heading to work now.. will be working till 1am tonight.. u guys haf a gud weekend ya!!

xoxo,gilerazgal

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

64) wat more can i do...

2009-06-08T02:30:00.003+08:00

to my dearest frenz whom i loved dearly, plz do not be offended by wat u r going to read.. u noe me... i expressed myself freely.. so plz... i need u guys to understand,not to avoid e issue.. & if u think i'm wrong, plz call me.. plz dun talk behind my back.. u noe i welcome confrontations.. i guess tis is e only avenue dat i can speak freely & clearly bcos i can't call u guys as its 3am in e morn.. but tis is how i feel.. plz try to understand wat i'm trying to say here instead of jumping to conclusions..

sumtimes i feel wen i talk to u guys about J, everyone wud juz go,"hmmmmm..." or "ah...." or " we haven seen him in a while..." y cant u guys juz talk about him freely around me? y cant u guys understand dat its perfectly okay for him to meet me as normal frenz? y do u guys need to confront him about meeting me?

i noe u all care & concerned about me & daus..i really do.. but dun worry.. wateva unhappiness or problems dat we r or going to encounter is definitely not bcos of J.. i need u guys to understand dat i really haf moved on & i can accept e fact dat he is my fren now.. i am perfectly happy wif daus even though our relationship has flaws, but i'm happy.. dere will be no way i'm gonna leave daus bcos of J.. i dunno wat will happen in e future but my relationship wif J is e same kind of friendship dat i haf wif u guys.. he's aint any different...

i lurve u guys & i noe dat u guys r very very concerned about me.. i appreciate it lots... & though u guys show it differently from wat i expect, at least i noe u guys care.. thank you.. but juz tone down a bit on worrying about J k? Nothing to worry about ya... I hope tis will clear e issues or concerns u guys haf.. i lurve u & u noe who u r... muacks!!!

becos all of us haf our differences, dats wat makes our group special.. & we haf our own wys of being protective of each other.. i noe.. =)

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63) my dream finally came true....

2009-06-02T09:37:00.003+08:00

pRoUd oWnEr oF tIs SuPeRfOur VtEc SpEc III nOw.. 010609

oh ya... since i haf a name for my gilera, Maman (which is soooo very e melayu), i shall call tis one rite here, DiNo... =)

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62) recent events

2009-05-30T22:00:00.003+08:00

so many things happenned in e laz 10 days.. a part of me wanna blog sooo much yet a part of me is too lazy to blog.. several ups & downs happenned too.. so i really dunno where to begin... lets start wif e serious stuff 1st..

e doc did e final scan of my dad's brain.. one third of bapak's brain do not haf supply of blood.. so dat explains y he kept having, wat he called as, "i see stars".. sudden blackouts.. he gets tired easily now.. his words r jumbled up.. & u nid to tell him things twice or thrice.. wen e doc spoke 2 him, he was reluctant.. but a few days ago, i had a discussion wif him & he decided dat he wans to go ahead wif it.. i broke down infront of him, kakek & mama.. i guess kakek was shocked.. dere i was talking to him & suddenly i juz broke down.. i really din expect it myself.. but ya.... i am scared.. i am very very scared... dat is y i'm gonna talk to e doc myself on e 22nd..

i am fine wif e way bapak is now.. i dun mind if he do not wanna go ahead wif e ops.. i dun wanna anything worst to happen to him.. but its his life, his brain & decision is his.. if he wanna go ahead wif it, its his choice & all i can go is to give him support.. all e support dat i can give..

so everyone, plz pz pray for my dad ya..ops's date is not confirmed yet cos blood tests r needed.. but i'll keep u guys informed.. he'll need all e prayers dat he can get.. & plz plz do not mentioned it to mama or bapak ya.. they haf not plan to tell anyone yet... but Insya allah, he'll get better wif or wifout e ops, i hope....

& to Iskandar Hadi, i noe u've been reading my blog for watever reasons, only u urself noe.. i cant say much cos its ur right to read.. but do not use tis blog as an avenue to get ur stories & disturb my fren's life anymore.. i noe its hard to move on.. i really do cos i've been through it.. but plz... for e sake of our 'fren', wat u r doing is only gonna hurt u more than ever.. wat we can do is to pray for her to be happy in her life wif her loved ones ok.. lets not create a big hoo-ha here.. i still respect u as a fren so plz do me tis favor..

& to my frenz, i apologized if my blog has created any disturbance in ur lifes.. it is not my intention to do so.. i hope dat u will accept my apologies sincerely..

well, tis has been a long entry but these r e issues dat r bothering my mind now.. dun worry.. i still haf happy moments for e past 10 days.. like how we celebrated Lin & Dan's bdae!! hope u 2 enjoy e 'sumthing different' dinner & certainly hope u liked ur prezzies!!!

HaPpY BdAe tO mY dEaResT fReNz, LiN & DaN...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

61) back in sg but busy studying

2009-05-20T03:04:00.003+08:00

its 0303hrs on 20th may.. & guess wat? instead of telling u guys all about my redang trip, which was fanstastic, i'm online to do research on e pricing of ICs & passports.. my exam is officially 30 hrs more & i think i haven been studying enough.. & u noe wat? i did a little, tiny, weeny bit of studying in Redang on e 1st nite.. SERIOUS!! & my colleagues tot i was crazy.. but i had to cos on e 2nd nite, i was dead drunk.. hahaha!! thank God i did study on my 1st nite dere, otherwise i wud feel so guilty to bring my notes all e way to Redang,without touching them at all..

i've juz been to ICA website & got wat i need to noe.. but i cudn't resist not to blog so dat explains y i'm here wen i'm supposed to be studying.. will tell u more about e trip after my exam ya...

niwae, i'm done with blogging so off to my notes again.. need to study for however long my eyes can tahan.. targeted time: 4am..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

60) one week ltr....

2009-05-14T16:31:00.002+08:00

i finally managed to get my mum involved in my scouting for a new bike.. she din make any noise wen i saw bapak some options.. & i managed to get her to sit in front of my lappy, showing e pics... in a way, i have progress a bit la.. hahah .. got a few dat i saw online.. obviously, wud prefer to haf VtecIII but if i do buy dat, i'll be a bankrupt.. dun wan an expensive bike la.. i juz wanna fulfil my dream of riding a S4.. & bapak is obsessed wif VtecI so he wun settle wif a superly nicely done up v. S wif micron pipe & VtecIII tail... haiyo.. dat 1 very nice & very cheap lor.. but i think bapak wanna relive his S4 moments so he only wans me to buy VtecI.. den hor, found 2 VtecI dat are quite affordable but they seldom online.. haiz.. so really must slowly find lor...

my law exam is coming up rite after my holiday.. & i haven even start proper studying.. actually, i've started la but so fening kepale one lor.. all e definitions & Acts & penalty & watsoever... i hope i can really absord sumthing cos i can't afford to fail it.. seriously!!! & guess wat? i have to bring my notes on my holiday, dat's for sure... =(

yesterday, wen to JB wif Lin & Dan.. very laz min idea.. actually, in e morning, Dan's bike got prob.. konon nak tolong la padahal kena tow jgk akhirnya.. den sit around at home den made e laz min idea to go jb.. lin bought NBc car accessories & kakek bought me a huUUuuge Jack.. i liiiike... e mini version of Jack is hanging on my chop box.. now i'm considering of doing a decal of NBC for my gilera...

oh!! dun worry.. even though i'm going to get a S4, i still) remember my dearest gilera, maman ok? dats e name kakek's frenz gave my bike.. hahaha.. i wud prob wanna do him up too... he haf been a gud bike to me for e past 3 yrs so i think he shud received sum gud attention..

wait & see lor... it will take time cos OT is reducing day by day but i will do it.. & i can't wait for tomolo.. me off to redang!! =) so in case u dun see any updates for a while, me & kakek r far far away, enjoying e sun & e sand & e sea in Redang.. hopefully i can enjoy & study @ e same time (i din forget e studying part ok?!) u guys take care!! haf a great weekend ya... oh ya... dun miz me!! hahahhaha

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

59) she's still ain't talking to me... haiz...

2009-05-10T11:52:00.003+08:00

no luck still... mummy dearest is still not talking to me about e hope for getting a new bike.. darn!! all she said to me were, "i've cooked today.. better eat at home hor..", den she hang up... OR, "i neva cook ah today.. go find food urself.." & she hanged up again.. everytime i wanna begin my topic about S4, she locked herself in her room.. soOOooOoo childish one!!! hmmmph!!! but i got 1 guy who is all out for me to get a new bike.. in fact, he's trying to help me talk to my mum.. dat person is..... MY DAD!!! =)

well, i shall not push but shall wait for gud news.. i hope... niwae, tis morning i rode adha's S4 VtecIII.. wow!!! e sound, i like.... hiaz.. can't wait for my own...

niwae, again for vesak day, alpha is working & laz nite was jam packed wif SG cars coming back.. a lot of e passengers r very irritating to e extent of abusing our officers.. at break time, some of my colleagues were complainin of having kena scolded 'stupid', passports thrown to them, people refusing to co-operate to show their face.. oh come on!! 1 word of advice, dun go to JB if u guys wanna complain lor.. as hard as i tried to be smiling & courteous, dere r some people who r juz out to spoil ur day.. usually, i wud brush it off.. or curse & curse them BUT only after they leave my counter ah... hahahha..

wanna complain bout another thing.. Jafri... usually, i wud put J but, to hell wif it... niwae, Jafri is my ex-boyfriend of 8 yrs whom i loved dearly but apakan daya, kite takde jodoh.. & after 1 1/2 yrs of his silence, we met & cleared our misunderstanding & agreed on being purely frenz.. & being adults, i really tot he can handle it.. occassionally, we wud SMSed each other, juz saying hello.. but e other day, i called him cos i cleared his uncle.. so konon nak ckp la yg aku ni clear pakcik die... & also to ask how did he do for his anugerah audition.. but my call was rejected & he SMSed me saying tis,: "wat do u wan ???" KNN... cancelled my call but can msg.. tot he was busy or wat but can sensed dat he was not nice.. so i replied saying sorry if i'm disturbing him & chill ah.. but i guess he's going through PMS ah.. so irritated!! come on lor.. y so sensitive? juz a normal phonecall ma.. but i guess he might b wif a gal,dat's y e cold shoulder.. aniwae, wat's new? he gave me dat treatment before lor wen he was wif dat ******...
told kakek about it cos was quite confused and upset by his treatment.. wateva his reason is for acting e way he did, i guess sum people juz can't grow up...!

me gtg.. juz took a long shower & now shall take a nap before my kakek brings me out for a date.. =)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

58) busy but happy!! =)

2009-05-05T18:00:00.005+08:00

i noe its been a while since i laz logged in but was kinda busy.. juggling work, kakek, my 2 license lessons.. haiz...

updates on Kakek & me.. we did e craziest thing on my laz nite off... went home & slept for a while den off to CineLeisure to do a movie marathon.. we actually watched 2 movies back to back.. Friday the 13th & Jgn Tegur.. both movies r e kinda movies dat make ur heart jump out kind.. scary.. but we had fun... den went home & watched our newly-bought dvd (Kate & Leopold).. movie marathon,shud try it again sum day...

niwae, as sum of u noe, i resumed my 2A lessons again.. din tell people about my TP test but ya, my TP was tis morning.. on sunday, i went for e revision circuit & i fell off e bike at e E-brake station.. & i hurt my leg... its funny cos all these yrs, i haf had no accident at all outside but i always fell during my lessons @ BBDC.. & i fell AGAIN @ e same station tis morning during warm-up session.. I told myself dat if i do not pass tis TP test, den it is not rewarding at all to fall 2 times!! &&&&&&& after much anticipation & heart-thumping moments dat i encountered during e test, I, ALIZ E MENACE, HAD PASSED MY 2A TP TODAY!!! juz 1 attempt only!!!

so indeed, e fall was well worth it.. now i juz haf to scout around for my fav bike!! so exciting.. wen i told my mum dat i passed, she completely ignored me wen i reached home.. KNN!! she noes dat i'm gonna ask her for her permission to get a new bike on my own or better still, if she wanna sponsor me, i wudn't reject dat offer, of cos.. hahhahah!! but she's not talking to me at all, even till now... hmmmmmmmph!!

& tis is e scar dat i got from e fall & my knee is bruising up too..

04/05/2009 - Passed my BTT

05/05/2009 - Passed my 2A

now, all i haf to do is start my practical lessons... Pray for me, guys!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

57) new face of I. C.heck A.ll

2009-05-01T09:34:00.002+08:00

like i told u b4, Alpha always work nite shift for public holidays.. & true enough, i was at work laz nite while people are partying e weekend away.. but 1 passenger made my day... in fact, 2.. hahahha..
1 chinese guy commented dat i haf a sweet smile & e org shud make posters of my smiling face.. hahahha.. not i say one hor... den he said," shud put up ur poster instead of MSK's face all over e place.. Haiyo.. his face is so outdated already lor..." hahhaaha.. he made me crack laughing out loud lor.. but after dat, i can't look at his face already.. oh ya.. i can't accept compliments well...
next was a malay abang who commented dat e org shud haf more staff who smile at passengers more rather den all e fierce looking officers around... actually ah, i was talking to abg yus who was in my counter lor.. hence, e very big smile.. hahahah..

but... i wish for more people like them lor.. everyday without fail, u'll meet nasty people who thinks we owe them a living.. its kinda frustrating but cursing after they leave ur counter helps a bit.. i'm sure all e officers do dat.. i'm not gung-ho enough to say it in front of their face cos it will take my time unnecessrily lor... i wud rather haf dat time to clear other nice passengers... niwae, off to sleep now.. another night to slave my arse off tonight..

ps: i noe its May already but i still have not put up photos of Sani & Kakek's bdae.. i'm too lazy to do it without my comp la.. oh.. my comp is still down.. darn!! & my hp too.. i wun noe dat i haf received msges unless i go directly into inbox and check.. wat's up wif it, man?!? do u think its time to get a new one..?

HaPpY LaBoUr DaY!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

56) juz frustrated

2009-04-26T00:18:00.004+08:00

i'm angry.. super duper angry dat i came into e house from work & OT & immediately sat in front of my lappy.. really angry... need to vent my anger out.. & i need to be awake in 5 hrs time.. but i dun care.. i'm angry.. niwae, comp down, still cannot fix.. dunno y.. but at least i haf my lappy to update on my blog.. oh... did i mention dat i can finally use facebook NOW wen it is soooo 2007 kinda thing?

niwae, wat i am supposed to do? being honest isn't e best policy for u.. i seriously tot dat people appreciate honesty.. obviously, u r not e kinda people.. so i let dat matter go.. nvm.. but today u make my blood go doubly up la!!!

qoute:"after FICO, i go home..."
yeah rite... not even concerned if i'm home... not even concerned if i have eaten or not.. wen i shamelessly volunteered myself to meet to grab a bite, "no need" was given to me... waliao wei!!! where to put my face siak? KNN...

frenz kept telling me, 'its a good choice..' but i dunno whether is it me or is it *ehem*... mayb i shud really lower my standards, lower my expectation.. its hard.. & i'm trying to compromise.. but plz dun tell me dat i haf to tell u the fundamental or e A, B,Cs of being in a relationship.. i juz wan things to go right.. & i noe i'm not perfect.. but plz, juz try.. e attention dat i need from e people whom i wan attention from are not giving me e attention... BUT yet, i've been receiving attention from all e wrong people... WTF?

"can sumbody tell me wat e hell is wrong wif me?"

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

55) disaster of aliz's comp turned shopping trip

2009-04-21T22:34:00.005+08:00

got a fren's bro to help me out to reboot my comp & fix it.. but in e end, it doesn't really matter.. hahahha.. niwae, i can't concentrate much.. been sitting in front of my laptop(Acer) since hours ago, trying to fix up my Net.. haven had any ciggies in more than 6 hrs.. Now its 2236hrs.. i betta run out to e shop 1st...

hold on... i'll be back..................................................................................

ANYWAY, i'm back... finally got my ciggies... hahhaha.. well, back to e story.. after rebooting, can't install my Internet Modem.. apparently, it cant read my modem so had to go & find a cable juz now after work.. cant find cable & he will try fixing it again on friday.. But instead of going home straight, i ended up buying 3 pairs of shoes instead.. OMG!! i really need to stop shopping if i really wanna purchase a newer & bigger item.. dat's rite!! i'm aiming for sumthing bigger but no one noes yet wat i wanna buy.. not even kakek... i hope i cud save enough money to buy 1 in a few months' time... Hopefully before e year ends.. Insya Allah...

aha!! talking about shoes & shopping, i really hate my mum, u noe... e other day, i found 3 pairs of adidas shoes on top of my wardrobe.. 1 pair was bought 6 yrs ago, another was 3 yrs ago & another pair, dunno when.. all not worn once.. u noe y.. cos mama will nag if i shop for shoes or bags, aiya, if i shop la.. so i'll always sneak into my room 1st & hide those things sumwhere in my room.. in e end, i will forget about it & not use it.. think dat is wat happened to these 3 shoes lor.. but only 1 is wearable cos the other 2 is damaged liao lor.. recently, i bought 2 shoes from CottonOn & now i can only find 1 lor.. e other 1, dunno go where lor... darN!!!
must try & find la..

niwae, told u a few days ago dat kakek & me went out, rite? we wen to QianHu FishFarm again & relaxed our feet,doing e fish spa.. den we play fishing... hahha.. for longkang fish!! & i won!! i caught more fish den kakek... so here's e proof...

left side is Kakek's.. see... i haf more fishes in my tank (right)

I'm a happy gal... hahahha

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

54) more updates, i promise

2009-04-19T23:02:00.002+08:00

i noe i haven been updating my blog as much as i want to, but i will soon cos my fren's gonna do up my comp... right now, logging onto the Internet is like a challenge for me, testing my patience each & every time...

niwae, did a couple of fun things wif kakek during my off days.. spending quality time, i must say.. but will update more once i get my comp up & running....

& will update on Sani & Daus's b'dae celebration once i get e pics from Nur.. she's taking forever,ever, ever to uplaod e photos... haiyo, tis nyonya... always like dat...

& updates for all.. i noe my all besties fav number... unlike sum people whom i shall not name.. & on dat very fateful bdae celebration day, i found out wat Sani's fav no is.. So to all my besties, plz remeber... Kamsani Bin Kamis's fav no is 8... hahahhahaaha...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

53) wat people do dat irritates me

2009-04-15T10:46:00.002+08:00

I noe e laz few days is all about Daus & Sani's bdae celebration but i'm not gonna blog about dat.. dat shall come later wen i get e photos & am in a better mood..

now... let's talk about wat people do to DESTROY other people's life wen they ain't helping at all.. i haf juz read The Newpaper a while ago over breakfast & its disturbing wen i saw an article about how a NEL officer was given disclipnary actions wen he was caught on camera, sittng down on a seat while there r other commuters who r standing.. i simply juz dun get.. oh come on... who noes dat DAT officer was off-duty & was really tired.. & obviously, dere wasn't anyone around who needs the seat more than he does... & e article stated about how some readers felt dat he shud give the seat up for other commuters, who by the way, were a group of young able-bodied people.. to those readers: "as if u wud give up ur seat to others wen u r really tired!!!"

Case #2:
A parking warden parked his bike in a carpark, removed his uniform (only e top la) & slept dere.. He was dismissed from his work... also caught on camera by a public member..

Case #3
A female security guard sleeping on a stool @ her station... Also caught on camera.. For this, the management explained dat she was sick & failed to report dat.. Instead, she still went to work..

Case #4 (not from e article)
A friend of mine was fined for parking his bike under his void deck for 5 mins because a nosy uncle snapped a photo of it & passed it to HDB...

Case #5 (not from e article)
A friend of mine who is a police officer was buying food from a coffeeshop, still in his uniform.. den walks over to a table to say 'HI' to members of e public.. yet, a complain came from another member of e public saying dat an officer was busy chit-chatting in a coffeeshop instead of doing patrol.. for tis, he was not given any bonus or promotion for e next 5 looong yrs....

u see... tis issue is very disturbing to me.. can u believe it? tsk tsk.. dere are nosy people around who think dat the r doing good but actually,they r doing harm... the first 3 cases could actually lead them to being terminated.. (oh well... 1 did get terminated).. wateva u nosy people r doing is affecting other's rice bowl.. who noes dat they haf family to look after therefore could not afford to miss work, even though they r sick.. who noes dat they r juz taking a nap so dat they wun be careless or worst, reckless in their driving whilst on duty... who noes dat dat NEL officer has already tried offering his seat before.. who noes?!?!

there r other better things dat U, NOSY PEOPLE, can do if u feel like contributing to e society or the government... more serious issues to take care of instead of tis little little things..
-wat about teenagers having sex on the staircases of our own houses? i dun see anyone doing patrolling on staircases...
-wat about drivers who speed as if their father owns e express-way? i nearly got knocked out several times before and yet i dun see people taking photos & sending it to the Traffic Police..
- wat about those teenage gals who sell their body on the Internet for $$? it cud be ur daughters, u noe.. e ones sitting in front of e computer for hours.. u neva noe..
- wat about people burning stuffs in places where they shudn't be burning? u noe wat i mean..dere r designated area for u to do so but its always done directly in front of my house..
- wat about killer litters? i see litters everywhere, big or small, in almost every other neighbourhood.. u neva noe dat 1 fine day, 1 huge item is gonna land on ur head..

if u guys like taking photos of others so much, den take up photography.. go for their lessons.. & guess wat? e lesson fees is helping e tutor to give $$ to his family... since u like helping people so much, do it e right way.. i pity those people mentioned in e article.. even though they dun mean to fall asleep on e job, even though they tried sleeping discreetly, NOSY PEOPLE r out to destroy their lifes...

niwae, i'm going to sleep now.. wasting my beauty sleep time, being angry over U,NOSY PEOPLE!! u noe who u r!!! i hate u!!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

52) sick again

2009-04-08T01:23:00.003+08:00

guess my immunity system is down yet again... i am sick AGAIN!!! my flu is not recovering yet & i've vomitted 3 times today.. so took mc again for m 2nd nite.. i think my SAC is gonna call me any time soon... darn!!

on another note, its e annual Sani & Daus b'dae yet again.. i haven got time to buy kakek's prezies, so off i went after geeting my mc... mama was really mad cos i'm supossed to b at home.. but i sneaked out for 2 hrs.. & i even tot of buying sum SEXY lingerie to wear for kakek... hahhhahahah.. but i dun think i will look sexy but it's worth e try.. hahhaha..

now linda is here, helping me wrap all those prezies for Sani & Kakek & she is complainingnon-stop about me not being romantic.. WTF?!? not romantic?? i went out to buy his prezies while i'm sick lor.. gimme sum credit here.. cut me sum slack.. DUH!! as i'm wrapping, my nose keeps running away from me lor..

"ordering around... dat's wat u r gud at...." juz came from noisy linda... WATEVA!!
oh ya.. & "dun be a wet blanket, PUHLEEZE!!" CRazY bItCH!!

niwae, tis is noisy linda doing e prezies....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

51) Nintendo WII

2009-04-06T13:41:00.003+08:00

juz spend 2 1/2hrs on my wii, playing animal crossing... e other day, dat nyonya in medan, seah, told me dat she do not noe if i can play those unoriginal games.. & despite several attempts, still dunno how to.. but after asking around, i managed to get it up & running.. YEAH!! in time for my noti noti monkeys for e weekend.. niwae, abg, nabila, alfian & shira was here over e weekend & hell yeah!! we had lots of fun playing wii sports & kakek too...

haiyo.. wen is seah ever gonna come back? waiting for my games.. hhahhaha... she promised dat she will get me games in medan.. but dunno if she remembers... hahahha..

niwae, gonna work night shift tonight & come off day on wed, kakek is gonna bring me out to play badminton.. yuhhoo... e other day, wen wif kakek's frenz but was too shy to play.. so we r gonna haf our alone time,playing badminton & practice hard.. den gonna meet up wif his frenz & wham!! can beat them at tis.. hahaha.. like real...

niwae, i dunno wat else to blog about cos i'm off to continue playing my wii.. hahahha... see ya!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

50) 1st one out

2009-04-06T13:34:00.002+08:00

like i mentioned before, news spread faster in wdlds than on CNN.. & e moment e email got out, people haf been msging me on my mobile asking me whether its true.. Sad to say, sumtimes i think people still do not know dat I'm not R but Norlizah.. how wud i noe if she's leaving or why she's leaving... niwae, ya... 1st one in my batch to actually leave ICA.. dunno whther its cos of the sm thingy but she's leaving.. i really hope dat its not bcoz of dat.. mayb she has a better job outside.. but if its really about sm, den u better think twice... its hard getting a job out dere.. recession & all.. 1 of my fren got vretrenched as an engineer... another one juz started training at HTA cos her company is letting go of people.. so u see, its not easy nowadays.. but to each his own.. if u really think dat way, den best of luck den!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

49) politics

2009-04-03T01:14:00.006+08:00

i've juz got home from work feeling angry.. wrote my name down for OT tomolo but got rejected!! & its funny cos only Mine & Adha's name is rejected.. while others' name who r at e bottom of e list, got approved...!! FAVOURITISM SIAK!!!! oh well.. since u all dun wan me, i shall not come.. but adha is going to try his luck.. let him try lor.. if can, next time i'll do e same.. darmit!! (tau ikut dzul & apid gi DBL O.. KNN!!)

niwae, despite repeat reminders to seah to borrow me her game, she still never bring.. & she's leaving in 2 days' time to far away Medan, trying to burn her dad's pocket.. i'm sorry if i din say 'gud-bye' to u.. probably it was e 'angry-never-get-OT' moment la wen u saw me.. hahaha... & dun forget to bing back games for me k? & need i remind u dat u still owe me my bdae present?!?!? & i noe i shudn't say tis but i will... "i'm gonna mizz ur crappiness, seah!!"

& i've been revising for BTT every single nite siak.. i hope to do my BTE soon cos my BTT is on 4th may.. oh God!! u all might b thinking dat since i have a license & have done my BTT before, it shud be easy.. HELLO!! it was 5 yrs ago...! so cut me some slack here.. onc i got my license, everything i learnt in sch is no longer in my head.. so dat's y haf to study again.. DARN!!

niwae, today i did cargo & we, girls, haf time to spare.. in e end, we took photos @ CCC, neglecting e seniors around.. hahahah.. blame it all on Saras.. she's e 1 who took out e camera & start flashing away... even Abg Jun & Ashren joined in e fun... tis is juz some of e pics dat i managed to take from their Hps.. hahahha!

Me, Saras, Khalida & Ifah

Me & Khalida (i noe.. oily face.. F2F for 2 hrs ma...)

& tis is Radin Helmie's arm.. he mentioned dat he will look cool with a tattoo peeping out from his uniform so i drew him an angel.. hahahha!!

& tis is my new Nintendo Wii!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

48) dragging myself to work

2009-04-01T13:01:00.003+08:00

been sick for e past few days & been sleeping like a pig at home... & finally today, i have to go to work liao... arg!! i seldom haf fever & wen i do get it, tis is wat happened.. weak, aching body all over.. niwae, its 1pm now & i'm starting work at 3pm.. & i dunno y but instead of getting ready for work, i'm here,sitting in front of my PC, blogging...

niwae, collected my Wii from seah already.. she's been sending me love letters in my pigeon hole,constantly reminding me dat my Wii is collecting dust in her house.. shithead!! niwae, got home feeling excited.. me & dad fixed it up in our new entertainment room (abg amir's room actually), only to find out dat it cannot read any disc.. ARG!!! den i went to central & bought several games & STILL!!!!!!! can't read... eatating seah!!! sold me a game set which i can't use.. hmmmph!!
oh ya.. nintendo Wii is another latest indulgence for e mth!! hahahha... ok!! i know,linda... u r going to say, "dere.. i told ya.. u r ot-ing too much dats y spend so much..." well, i noe it myself.. but only for tis mth k? next mth cannot spend anymore... hahhaha.. promise!! ops.. no promise.. juz mayb...

niwae, topic on marriage is on e rise nowadays.. several colleagues r getting married & even my best fren is too.. & i wonder, will i ever get married? kakek is gonna start sch soon & its gonna take him 5 yrs to finish.. 5 looooong yrs... i mean, we haven talk about marriage & stuff since we r still new in tis relationship but if i am gonna wait for him, i'll be an old hag liao... & my biological is ticking away as e yrs goes by.. i dunno.. even mama is worried.. but i've always avoided dat topic.. she is also stunned wen she heard e 5 yrs.. i dunno la.. i guess, let nature take its course..

well, i'm gonna b late for work if i'm not going to get ready now.. u guys haf a gud wednesday!!
=)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

47) fed up wif my pc

2009-03-30T12:31:00.002+08:00

i tell u, since e laz entry, it has been like 2hrs & i still can't log into e net for more than twenty mins.. & best of all, i can't enter friendster, multiply or even facebook... i noe dat i'm outdated but ya, i do have a facebook account.. juz dat i do not noe how to use it.. & since i'm on mc & i haf all e time in e whole today, i tot of rying it out.. but after i accept 2 fren requests, den my comp hang.. i dunno ah.. FED-UP!!!.. all cos of a virus, i think... ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

e only site i can go to blogspot... EATATING AH!!!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

46) updates

2009-03-30T09:47:00.004+08:00

din realized dat i haven blog in a while... lots have been going lately & its kinda hectic..

1) sumone's not happy cos i texted her bf.. like duh.. i din do anything wrong or text him mushy2 stuff... obviously, dere's a lapse of communication btwn u 2 so dun get me involved... thanks!!

2) wen to suntec to collect my LAPTOP!!! e item dat i bought during the IT show.. remember? i noe dat i'm outdated but i've been dreaming for a laptop ever since i was in poly.. & dat's like 8,9 yrs ago... wen i open it, i was running my fingers through e keyboard & kept ooo-ing & wow-ing to myself.. finally, i have a laptop dat i bought wif my hard-earned money...

3) my right eye is swollen yet again & dere's something dere.. hopefully nothing serious cos i had it twice already... & on mc laz nite & tonight too.. laz nite, i went to work, only to step in & report sick.. dunno y but wen i reached my workplace, e headache keep getting painful so i decided to go home.. wen to 3 doc & got charged $84 for 6 medicines.. seems like day-light robbery but i guess its bcos of e timing la...

4) went shopping again wif kakek... bought him a fossil wallet & an Aldo sunglasses for myself.. wanted to buy him a wallet long ago but he very cerewet one.. so after choosing, i paid up.. easier dat way.. at least he will like it rather den i buy sumthing dat he dun like... & for my Aldo sunglasses, it was an impulse buy.. hahahhahahah

5) my mum & dad reshuffled my furnitures in my room to create a new layout.. i was talking about doing it but wen i came back from work yesterday, they have already started.. THANKS MAMA & BAPAK!! & i lurve e new layout.. but den again, i think u guys r bored sitting at home e whole day.. dats y u make-over my room, right? hahahah

6) watched Confessions of a Shopaholic.. it was a superb movie... laughed non-stop.. u guys shud watch e part where Rebecca Bloomwood dance wif a fan in her hand.. she is so weird & quirky & kakek says she reminds him of me... sumtimes, i do dance like her.. dats y wen kakek laughed, i duno if he's laughing at e movie or imagining me doing e exact same dance.. & coincidently, he bought me a fan wen he came back from KL e other day.. hahahaha..
& i can so relate to her.. i am a shopaholic too, u noe.. BUT i dun haf a credit payment of &$16000 to pay up.. niwae, go watch it k?

7) & since my room is nice & clean, i tot of throwing stuff in my drawers.. i tell u, i haf lots of junks in my many drawers.. but wen i throw things away which seems like i dun need them, i will end up needing them maybe 2 weeks later.. so... was cleaning cleaning den i found sumthing!! my pen-pal letters from primary sch!! hahaha... my pen-pals are my two best frenz & though we see each other everyday, we write letters to each other... weird rite? was laughing my head off wen i read those letters.. NurAzlina Malik & Farah Norliza Ghazali, if u guys r reading tis, i'm sure u'll b laughing too.. gossips about e gals in e next class, boys, puberty & many more.. we even haf secret name for every1 whom we gossip about... QB la, MC la, KY la... we did continue writing even in diff sec sch.. but somehow, i cudn't find any letters after yr 2000,.. but its kinda cute juz thinking bout it..

niwae, me going to sleep again now.. juz eatem my medicines & i'm getting drowsy.. so.... haf a gud week peeps!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

45) i'm going broke soon, i think..

2009-03-23T15:00:00.002+08:00

Friday, went to expo to empty my pockets dere.. hahaha.. went to e Adidas Sale with Ifah where i got myself 2 tops & 1 for my missing kakek... (he's away in KL for sum KORN concert & only back laz nite.. which of cos, i haven seen him yet...& ya.. i miz him..) next hall, Robinson sale where i bought a top & 3 PC sets...

like wat linda like to say, i'm doing too much OTs & dats y i haf sooo much to spend.. actually, i wud rather think as after slaving my arse off at work for 2 whole mths, i think i deserve sum shopping for myself.. & not feel guilty about it.. besides, i wanna a tiny weeny bit of change to become a bit more lady-like... hahah

niwae, i drop ifah off e other day & i saw tis cat under her void deck.. it looks like its wearing a tuxedo.. cute rite?

BF tip #4: Dun lie through your teeth... we, ladies, can sense dat...

BF tip #5: Dun play wif words,especially wif a gal named Aliz... hahaha

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

44) can i get e right partner?

2009-03-21T11:07:00.002+08:00

i read tis sumwhere, think in my email ah.. & i sooo understand wat tis is all about cos i keep asking myself dat question... so tis is sumthing for u guys to read about...

"Every relationship has a cycle...In the beginning; you fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls, want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completelynatural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU. Falling in love is a passive andspontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touchis not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between theinitial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage. At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someoneelse. This is when relationships breakdown.The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfilment. Extramarital fulfilment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. AndTEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.. Because (listen carefully to this): The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love theperson you found.SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make itwork. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner). Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws forrelationships. If you know and apply these laws, the results are predictable. Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO!! "

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

43) Batam Trip

2009-03-21T02:41:00.010+08:00

e other day, 2 of my CRAZY frenz were msn-ing about GG.. den at e same time, both of them decided to msg me & asked where i bought mine.. & e same frenz decided to drive to JB e very nite to purchase GG.. CRAZY B*&%hes!!

& guess wat? we did go anyway.. but luck wasn't on their side.. all e shops dat we went to dun haf GG series.. sold-out apparently... so off we went to SinggahSlalu for an array of seafood.. its been a while since i laz wen to JB for seafood wif frenz.. definitely brings back memories of J, Kak Lily, Abg Rasyid & wan.... Oh God.. i miz them.. but those r history & dat's y they are called memories...

niwae, my off day, went to Batam wif mum, dad & kakek.. wanted to go for a spa treatment but can't.. so i did hair treatment which cos me less than SGD20 & my hair look smooth.. den bring e 2 boys around e malls cos mum haven finish her spa.. OH!! we bought so 'gorengan' & it taste delicious!! actually, its juz fried stuff.. like fried taufu, fried tempe, fried... oh ... juz fried stuff..

after day, we went to another area where they offer SGD8 massage for 90mins... how cool is dat?& since kakek spend 2 hrs waiting for my hair to be done, i offered to follow him for dat massage.. & i really din regret dat desicion.. niwae, massage was FABulous!!! u guys shud really go for it.. where in SG can u $8 massage?!? worth every cent....

niwae, pics of my trip.. weather was sooo hot dat me & kakek keep playing wif our shadows...

Clear cloudless sky @1730hrs.. no wonder its super duper hot!!

Bring e boys out jln2....

me & kakek playing wif our shadowsme & kakek

me mum & dad

My donuts from J.CO

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

42) IT show 2009

2009-03-16T12:22:00.002+08:00

here i am blogging away wen i'm supposed to be getting ready for work.. Juz a couple of updates on my life den i'll get ready.. dun worry.. i haf enough time to get a proper shower, unlike sum1 who came to work wifout washing her hair... EEEEuW!!

niwae, off day yesterday & again i din get any sleep.. after work, wen shopping wif Ifah @ TisFashion @ Kranji.. I haf not stepped into TisFashion in a loooong while but after much persuasion from Ifah whose detemination is to get me to buy a dress.. so off we went & tried lots & lots of apparel... In e end, i bought 2 dresses!! hahhaha... & immediately, i wore e denim dress to suntec for e IT show..

e crowd was overwhelming wen i reached Suntec wif Apid.. he was my date for e IT Show.. luckily, he convinced me take public cos it was jam packed everywhere.. wen around looking for both my & his items.. looked at several items & den we bought ourselves e things we wanted b4 kakek arrived.. apid bought tis cooooool exilim camera dat can take pic while u r shaking it & on nite mode sumore.. pic was cystal clear la.. nice... did ask kakek if he wanted to buy me dat too but he replied "no....." bluntly.. damn!! but he dunno dat i already bought sumthing for myself.. & since mine is outta stock, i'll haf to collect it at e end of e mth.. Kakek dunno wat i bought or did i buy anything at all.. so can't reveal now... hahhaha

aite den... its gonna rain now so i guess i better get ready so can get to work earlier... U guys haf a gud monday!!! =)

BF tip #3 (Seah's contribution) : Make sure u r single to begin wif...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

41) 09.03.13

2009-03-16T12:19:00.002+08:00

Fallen deeper into e trap dat i've set for myself?
---> nah............ Fell too deep now for anyone to save me.. I;; juz haf to remind all tis will end soon.. But on e positive side, I'll uz haf to enjoy e moment while it last..

PS: on dat fateful day, 1 of my dreams came true... Mind-blowing!!!

XOXO, GilerazGal....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

40) tips

2009-03-12T19:57:00.002+08:00

hey guys... u noe wat? i feel like doing up a book entitled: "101 tips on being a boifren.."
amacam? any takers? i think it will be a great hit siak, especially for all the lost boys who have completely no idea on how to treat a gal right...

hmmmmm.... Y dun u guys contribute? oh come on... it'll be fun... i'll do tis: on every entry, i shall write at least 1 tip... den can compile, den can sell, den can get rich... hahahhaha...
let me begin:

1) DUN ever buy a gift for ur gf & den buy e EXACT one for sumone else, especially ur mum or ur sis.. dat's a big NO-NO!!

2) DUN say to a gal: "mayb or later i will call" but in e end u neva call cos u forget or busy.. its better if u dun say anything at all den it will be a surprise.. its better tis way.. even if u wanna argue dat u din ask e gal to wait, we (e kind soul, not stubborn) will definitely wait..

3) * i can't think of anymore cos i wanna berak* hahhahah

Gerlfrenz................. help me in tis ya....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

39) after a day of thinking

2009-03-12T19:47:00.002+08:00

a part of me says dat i feel bad & regret for writing the previous entry but another part of me is saying dat its ok to express how i really feel..
i really dunno how to act at work wif tis thing acting up..
juz so u noe, again, i'm sorry if u feel dat way & i really need u 2 understand dat writing e previous entry is not to lash out at u personally but how frustrated i feel at how 1 person's desicion can make evryone feel shitty..

Hopefully, e frenship can be savour... InsyaAllah...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

38) gud relationship gone bad

2009-03-12T00:26:00.003+08:00

juz so u noe, i'm crying tis very instance after i read ur entry..

ever wondered y i've always avoided ur conversation regarding e transfer thingy?

ever wondered how bad i feel?

ever wondered dat i'm pushed by circumstances & dat's y i did all dat?

ever wondered if i'm genuinely sorry?

ever wondered wats e REAL reason on why i cried after dat much-talked-about balloting, after talking to TL?

ever wondered if dere r other reasons y TL chose u? i seriously dunno but mayb u do.. i dunno.. i'm juz saying...

ever wondered if all these commotion is making me sick too? sick to e stomach..

sum things dat u shud noe:

-i'm sumone who tells everything & publicizing it,even my dirty laundry.. so its not my fault if u dun let others noe ur problem.. but like they say, to each his own..

-i'm up for a confrontation/talk if u wan to.. dun go around talking about it & letting others noe while u act as if things r ok btwn u & me.. clearly, its not now..

-dun mention dat cos i'm older, i shud be wiser.. I AM... dat's y i'm doing tis..

-e way u talked bout balloting, i noe wat balloting means.. i've done it, remember?

-i am not backing out, merely asking for my rights 2 b exempted like wat e other TSs r doing.. Wat TL did & how she's doing it, is her freaking problem, not mine.. obviously, she's trying to cover her arse too..

-i'm definitely not trying to make MY problem into UR problem.. dat's for sure...

-stop saying 'i dun have any problem with e gal who needs to go to SM' cos obviously u do..

-& dun try to say dat u r not blaming 'e gal' cos obviously u do.. (u r quite contradicting on wat u say on ur entry)..

1 thing for sure, e decision lies with TL.. & if she wans me to play e bitch becoz she did e mistake of not exempting me in e 1st place, den i shall play e bitch.. call me selfish if u wan..

& if u wanna keep throwing things at me, i understand.. i totally do if i'm in ur position..

About wat TL has chosen,plz dun think dat tis is not affecting me too.. i do think about it.. i do feel bad about it.. i do feel like i'm e bitch here.. & i do cry about it..

i've never meant for things to turn out tis way.. i really do.. how a simple thing dat is decided by sum1 else is tearing our frenship away.. even if i'm a bitch, i have feelings too & i care.. all i can say is i'm sorry if u think i'm to blame for wat happened.. i'm sorry if u think i'm not responsible enough.. im sorry if u think tis is too secondary sch-like.. but den again, sorry is juz another word dat i can say.. u really dunno how i feel deep inside.. & its totally up to u to accept tis apology.. definitely, u haf e right in tis..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

37) WLDS CHPNT WINS E MATCH!!!

2009-03-11T23:07:00.003+08:00

so much excitement, especially since we r playing in a ACTUAL field instead of e usual street soccer court... & e game is set for WLDS Alpha & TS Alpha... Yuhoo.. finally a competitor not from my own Alpha team...
e game was intense & exciting.. its been quite a while since i laz saw a real soccer game consisting of frens.. e laz time was probably during my time wif J..
niwae, we won!!! WLDS Alpha WON!!! YUHOOO!!!! 3-2!!!

not soccer-related,
-was hoping dat i wun feel tis way about e meeting but i did anyway.. sigh!! sum1 told me tis: sumtimes, sum things r better off unknown, unseen...

XOXO, Gilerazgal...
PS: i've rebonded my hair..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

36) Kumar's Night @ HRC!!

2009-03-11T22:58:00.002+08:00

i tell u... its soooo funny lor.. kumar haf not lost his/her (???) touch of making crude, rude, sarcastic remarks/jokes about events or people around.. still e sexy & spicy kumar...

1 thing for sure: dun go wif ur 'yellow' frenz.. he/she'll make fun of them rabakz2... its fun to laugh at people but its definitely not fun to be laughed at.. hahaha.. juz a word of precaution.. take it or leave it..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

35) how my sunday went

2009-03-11T22:45:00.003+08:00

disastrous!!! horrendous!! not as well as i planned...
1) Kakek arrived a while after my blog entry which gives me very little time to get ready.. NVM!!
2) Kuda kepang on dat day started a bit late & it was not dat nice..
3) BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT EVER!!!- my fav beef stall has moved to.... DUNNO WHERE!!!??!?! i tell u, e porridge is sooo sedap dat it deserved a 6 'OOOOOO's.. but it has been replaced by a stall selling mee soto, mee rebus, lontong kinda stall (at nite? huh?)

Plz plz plz... if u ever noe where my fav stall have moved to, let me noe ya... i'm sooo craving for it!!! arg!!!
Info: its e Teh Tarik infront of Kampung Melayu.. & its e stall in e centre of e dining area..
plz... any1 giving me any info on this stall will be rewarded handsomely..

=)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

pics at work

2009-03-07T16:56:00.004+08:00

actually..... juz wanna show u guys e new bangs la... hahhahaaha...

introducing ADHA, me beloved buddy @ work....

e slenger bacin guy who's always disturbing others, except me cos i haf adha.. hahah!!

XOXO, gilerazgal
... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

34) how i'm spending my saturday now

2009-03-07T16:30:00.002+08:00

weird but i kinda forget wat day it is today... niwae, i haven slept since i came back tis morning.. & its 4pm wen i promised kakek dat i will sleep at 1pm.. hahah.. well, tis is wat i've done so far...

morning: breakfast wif a few colleagues.. & thanks to Ifah, i had chicken noodles for breakfast.. i tot dats supposed to be lunch..
afternoon till now: got home & watch Gossip Girls again.. yeah.... i noe.. laugh at me if u wan to.. i noe GG is soooo 2008 but i stopped after watching the 13th episode den...
Night (mayb): off to Kampung Melayu for my fav beef porridge & kuda kepang...

so here's e deal.. i'm supposed 2 b sleeping now & kakek's coming in 2 hrs time but i'm still not asleep yet & GG is still playing on my TV... blame it on Kakek.. e other day, we went to JB & i found a shop dat finally sell e complete set of GG & DirtySexyMoney.. so i bought BOTH series with 2 seasons each.. & since den, i'm hooked on GG... HELP!! now, i'm actually asking for help here.. i can't stop watching!!! e other day, i can't convinced kakek to watch wif me.. like, arg!! laz time wen i watched online, he was dere too.. but now, no... i haf to watch it all alone & i really dunno how to switch off my DVD player.. all i noe is to press 'NEXT' & 'OPEN' & insert a new disc & press 'PLAY'...

& u noe wat? it was on 'PAUSE' a while ago cos i'm super hungry.. so i cooked scrambled eggs & toast... so now i'm having breakfast menu for my lunch...weird!! & while i'm writing tis blog, GG is still playing... so enjoy ur weekend peeps.... me going back to my GG... & i'm soooo looking forward to Monday!!! i'm going for Kumar's nite @ HRC wif a few colleagues.. its been a while since i laz stepped into HRC.. actually, i can't even remembered e laz time.. well aniwae,gtg!!

XOXO,gilerazgal... (hahahaha)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

33) oh shuttup, people!

2009-03-06T12:20:00.002+08:00

told ya i've got bangs now.. ifah seems e only genuine one who thinks its cute.. she was soo excited to see my bangs.. Oh ya.. & my dad too.. was super admiring my bangs & kept saying its nice.. mum said,"its nice!" bluntly. kakek took a whole 10 secs to reply whether i'm cute wif e new hairstyle or not (obviously,he's overwhelmed by e outcome).. nur saw e pic on my msn for a brief sec & mentioned dat its buruk.. M said its cute but only bcoz i think he forced himself too. Taib & huda din recognised me tis morning when i said 'hi' to them.. oh!! & sam too.. at least khairi & adam did recognized me but had to mentioned, "wat happened siak to u?"

See how a simple bang can do to u.. getting all e attention, unwanted attention actually.. people!! sumtime a change is good.. at least in my hairstyle case.. actually, i haf a love hate relationship wif my hair.. so dun add fuel to e fire can or not!!

niwae, 4 cars think i'm chinese & said i'm sweet.. hahhaa.. they totally make my day...

1 car= auntie auntie (tai-tai) sort

1 car = '03' chinese men

2 cars = makcik makcik melayu...

see? dere r nice people around... aaahhh....

i have a confession to make... e other day, i cleared tis cute guy who looked chinese but his name is burgess daniel martin.. hensem giler!!! confirmed mixed breed one.. i've decided to mentioned it online cos i suddenly remembered his name & i think he's super cute... hahahhaa..

but den again, i think i'm beginning to turn into Stalker-Seah.. arg!! no!!!

k den.. me gtg for work.. presnting my new bangs.. & its TOTALLY up to u to jugde..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

32) updates

2009-03-05T13:31:00.002+08:00

got myself a new haircut.. actually, not haircut la.. juz cut e bangs.. a bit on e kawaii side but i kinda like it.. only dat it needs sum getting used to..

work-wise, e sm discussion thingy is getting outta hand... apparently, it seems like people r still talking & must i say, bitching about me.. now i have nothing else to say but let it to e hands of God.. hopefully, it will turn out well & not cause any friction btwn anyone.. but 1 thing i noe for sure, wen peeps say lets keep tis conversation btwn e 2 of us, dun believe them.. i'll remember dat..

& my dad juz went for an x-ray of e brain 2 days ago.. e result is not dat gud though.. laz mth, we haf an option of going for an op.. but looking at e results now, we might haf no other option but to do e op.. but dunno yet la.. he's now at another x-ray.. den we'll see wat e doc has to say den.. its definitely causing a straint in my family, regardless of financially & emotionally.. its like a roller-coaster ride for us now.. & its definitely not helping wen there's isnt much OT dat i can do at work..

lets hope for e best!! pray for me guys, work & my dad too....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

31) stressed up

2009-03-01T01:59:00.002+08:00

went to Bikes Asia on friday thinking i wud b e 1st few to catch it BUT no... its only open to traders.. DARN!! & its not even fair wen u dun even broadcast it in e news..
ended up at NATAS fair instead to check out e prices for Bali.. Damn tempting.. i sooo need a holiday for myself now... really wan a get-away-from-everything vacation desperately...

niwae, wats stressing me up is work related.. apparently, sum shuffling is going on & wif e help of my team leader, she understood my situation & helped me by giving me a solution.. But by helping me, i guess its hurting sum peeps' feelings... & i do feel bad about it but like wat she said, i did as told.. & to make matter worst, news at WDCKPT spread faster than CNN.. so i guess lot of people noe & definitely talking behind my back.. i juz hope dat these people wud understand my situation but as much as i hope for their understanding, humans r still humans.. they will talk bout u irregardless.. & i always believe dat i can't please everyone.. so let them talk... & i noe dat if my intentions r gud, GOD will side wif me.. Insya Allah.. call me selfish but i'm doing it for my family..

Ya Allah... ku mohon agar diberi ketabahan untuk melaluinya...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

30) can't sleep

2009-02-26T09:53:00.002+08:00

dunno if i did mentioned it here or my multiply blog dat HDB is doing extra lifts for my block & i will have 1 directly in front of my house wen i dun even need 1 especially wen i'm on level 1... wow.. dat was a loong sentence.. well niwae, they r still making a lot of noise, drilling & hammering 1 stuff or another.. darN!! i'm back from nite shift & i can't sleep cos of e noise level.. ARG!!

ppst: i have fallen deeper into e trap dat i have set up for myself wif so much confidence dat i wun fall into it.. do i need help? i dunno.. do i wan help? i dunno.. wat i noe is dat i wanna have e moment while it lasts.. & secretly, i do hope it wun last longer den i expected it to be..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

29) took from a fren's blog

2009-02-22T16:26:00.002+08:00

Oprah Winfrey said this about relationships:

- Maintain boundaries in how a man should treat you. If something bothers you, speak up!

which is wat i did but nothing seems to go into his head.. hmmmm.... galfrenz....... dun u ever feel tis way?

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

28) i forgot to add tis in

2009-02-22T15:59:00.002+08:00

work related.. I CAUGHT U!!! hahhaha.. proud of myself, of cos.. but quite scared if i'm wrong.. den dat will definitely invite a complain.. but i go wif my gut feelings & wif e help of Ifah,my fav mentor, i send dat bugger in..
& i'm RIGHT... its true wen they say dat desperate times call for desperate measures.. & too bad for this bugger, i had to send u in to save my arse..
But peeps say no matter how many cases u haf, if u haf 1 single mistake, they will mark u down.. hoepfully, i wun haf dat.. insya Allah...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

27) off day

2009-02-22T15:44:00.002+08:00

remember i say earlier dat my eye hurts? i took mc for 2 nites e other day.. it was swollen.. but few days ago, i had bloodshot eye.. dunno y la.. tot of going to e doc again yesterday but had ot.. so syg klau tak buat ot.. but alhamdullilah, today e blood veins like disappearing.. so we'll see how tomolo la.. niwae, its not disturbing my vision.. so its ok la, i guess...

niwae, fri nite, got linda to drive my parents to JK to let my dad meet his biker frenz.. hapy gile die dpt jumpe kawan2 lame.. da mcm budak muda.. hahhaa.. but of cos, he doesn't talk much.. die malu pasal die bbual tak btul sgt & peeps keep laughing at him.. hahha.. funny ah him.. so he juz smiled jer ah..

& remember i mentioned about an abg who's close to my family? he gave me a present!! an adidas watch!! yeah.. mcm tau jer aliz suke adidas.. hahhaha

niwae, nothing much to update.. its a rainy day.. & i'm super tired.. so i forgo watver plans for today & shall laze around in e house... u guys haf a great sunday!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

26) missing me

2009-02-17T13:07:00.006+08:00

it seems like ages ago dat i laz did an entry.. niwae, on 13th feb after work, came home to find a present on my bed.. though its 11 days after my bdae, its still february & u guys can keep giving bdae prezies if u wan to la... hahhaa.. & its a gift from my parents!! wen i opened it up, its a brand new HP.. BUT not e latest model la.. its actually a very old model but its ok.. its e thought dat counts.. really wasn't expecting anything from them but was really really surprised.. so sweeet.........

& V-day, after waiting for kakek for a loooong time, he finally came & picked me up to meet his frenz at Sembawang Park.. b4 dat, he gave me a NBC bag.. yeah!! so cuute... lots of jack's face on it.. oh... did i mentioned dat he actually bought me a Adidas Bagpack a few days after my bdae? i dunno but wat's up wif e bags,man? i do luv it but my mum keeps nagging at e number of bags dat keeps piling up in my room.. but THANKS KAKEK for e gifts!!! U've pampered me enough wif e endless gifts already... thankiu thankiu thankiu!!

back to sembawang park.. by e time we reached dere, e games r over.. darn!! i watched e vids of them playing silly games & it was so exciting but too bad.. by e time we came, all of them r tired from e games.. but it was a nice get-together thingy...

niwae, my eye hurts tis few days.. mayb its tembil but i can't see anything in my eye.. shud i or shud i not take MC for tonight? haiz... see how later ah.. now its time to golek golek b4 i decide to go doc or not...

e gift from my parents

e bags from Kakek

see how much i'm being pampered tis few days...? aaahhhh... i lurve february....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

25) ....

2009-02-14T10:28:00.001+08:00

HaPpY VaLeNtiNe's DaY pEoPlE!!!

i dunno wat's dere to be happy about today but juz for e fun of it la...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

24) ...

2009-02-11T16:31:00.002+08:00

sacrifice is wat i'll do for u.. dun tell me things wen u haf no intention of doing it..

ps: off day today but nothing to do.... haiz.........

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

23) talks

2009-02-09T16:13:00.002+08:00

guess wat? i slept after my previous entry all e way till morning.. kakek called me at 8pm & i simply told him dat i need to sleep.. my colleagues msged me about e going out thingy but i slept like a log.. darn.. so wasted sey...

niwae, had breakfast wif my parents tis morn.. my dad's condition is getting worst.. he keeps talking in a funny way.. all his words r jumbled up.. & e doc had told us dat he cud haf a surgery to facilitate e movement of e blood flow.. but its gonna b risky.. so we r still deciding... but me & mum can still cope so we r not in a rush to do dat surgery.. even my dad do not wan it..

on a lighter note, mama got a scare juz now.. 1 of my dad's biker frenz, quite a young chap la, has taken over e role of Arwah Abg Daud.. he's always calling & asking bout our well-being, exactly how Arwah Abg Daud used to do.. but juz now, he called mama & asked about ME!! & he mentioned dat he wans 2 'merisik'.. hahahha.. i find it funny but mama got scared.. she's afraid if he's falling for me.. hahhahaha... i dun think he's for real la.. i'm such a rebel.. who wud fall for me? i've always got all e Mr Wrongs... but all 's said.. its up to JODOH, which i extremely believe in... so.. e time will come when it comes...
& when mama asked me when i wanna get married, i answered her,'32'.. hahhhaa.. i must haf given her a heart attack den..

haiyo... 25th bdae equals to lots more people asking when i wanna get married... arg!! irritating!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

22) juz a simple day

2009-02-08T17:30:00.003+08:00

tis week is my bdae mood week.. only did 1 OT sey.. so i'm home now after morning shift.. mayb going out wif colleagues later.. niwae, i'm officially a bankrupt now.. went to vivo e other day wif kakek & shopped.. a lot!!! hahhaha.. lots of shop r having sales still thus the need for retail therapy..

i took e liberty to dress up since its our date.. me wearing heels & e paris hilton bag dat they gave me.. & it had to rain e moment i got out of e house.. & wen i reached vivo, my heels decided to break off.. PUTUS!! irritating!!!!!!!!! went around to find new pair of shoes & by e time we got to e cinema, movies not available.. double irritation!!

niwae, went shopping & dat explains e bankruptcy.. we managed to catch "Love matters" e next day coz i really wanted to watch it.. u guys shud too.. its very funny.. i liiike... kudos to jack neo for another brilliant movie.. can't stop laughing e whole time.. a bit crappy but stilll funny....

& today, seah dropped by my counter again & we played wif e intercom thingy, yet again.. & oh ya.. we saw a passenger wif a huuuuuuUUUuuuge 'taik hidung' hanging helplessly by his nose & we din even tell e poor guy about it.. we juz stood dere & laughed our heads off.. ingat tak seah?
kekek ah.. & seah being seah.. she kept disturbing my passengers using dat intercom thingy..

niwae, gonna watch sum tv now.. haf a gud week ahead peeps...!!

club marc & forever21

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21) 09/08 celebrates

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since its taking ages for my multiply to upload my bdae pics dere, shall do up another post..

3rd feb, Seah,Taib,Huda Yem, Huda J decides to bring me out for a movie.. we booked a room at Cmax (i think dats it is called la..), den rented a scary movie & had food... wanted to geng-bang Taib but 'The Haunted School' got our eyes fixed on e screen.. Den my dearest Adha(silent H) came wif a Bdae cake from Swensen's, gf in tow.. so sweet of u guys!!! really like e surprise... its a pity dat adam, mai, ayne & norman can't make it.. if not, it will b a hell of a time dere..

niwae, both HudaS got me tis very very cute socks & a sign dat says "No KiSS Please" wif a pic of a huuuge ass... & guess wat? they dunno dat it is included wif a condom la.. HELLO!!! y wud i need dat condom?!?! its tucked away safely sumwhere in my room.. mati aku klau mak aku nampak... My darling adha (silent H again) got me movie passes & a bag dat i've been eyeing for a looong time.. shall again post up e pics but later la.. Ayne & Norman gave me a dress at work yesterday.. very nice & girlie.. hahaha... me? girlie? hmmm...

thank u very much, u guys... & seah.. thank u for organizing tis day.. & i'm sorry u lost ur Yusofs... hahahhaha

e cake

happy me

e gals

me & Adha (i think i look gud in tis pic.. hahha)

e geng

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20) i wish tis number was my age...

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MIA coz was away for e weekend for my bdae celebration at Downtown East chalet B1210.. den back to work & doing OTs... niwae, here's my update on my bdae celebration...
it was a laz min thingy, having e chalet & preparaton was done by my bestest frenz in e world & kakek too.. & guess wat?!? for e 1st time ever in my life, i did not noe wat's in store for me.. & i must say ITS E BEST BDAE CELEBRATION EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (yuhooooo!!!)

started off as we all r meeting late & wen i reached B1210, bdae decors was up & my frenz were all dere, giving me a splendid surprise.. & i for once, was truly surprised & touched.. they had a theme for me.. 'PYJAMAS PARTY!!' see e pics & u'll noe y.. hahahha... i dun wanna blog much about it coz no words can describe how i felt at dat moment..

Special Thanks to all my dearest:
-Kakek
-Nur
-KamNani
-Linda
-Dan
-Kak Diana (for going along wif e plan)
-Liana (for being our maid for e evening)
-Appy (e other Feb Fool)
for making e bdae celebration,an exciting & fun one.. i LURVE u GUys.. & really ApPreCiaTE waT u gUys dId... & i sOoooOOoOooOOo lurve e pREZZIES, even e SIA pyjamas (eeeuuuww)...

ps: for more pics, go to http://gilerazgal.multiply.com/

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pictures galore

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... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...