i had juz occured a very embarassing moment here in my room while watching sex & eCT.. damn.. was watching Samantha doing her fireman in season 3,my mum decides to walk into my room wif baby in her arms.. so i chased her out cos i was smoking & i do not wan Dinol anywhere near my smoke.. but den... @ e very same moment,Samantha decided to scream as loud as she can get as she reached her orgasm.. FrEaK!! i wan frantically trying to press e 'pause' button.. but of cos, machines dun work wen u desperately nid them to.. mama din see any image on my screen but i think its obvious enough juz by e sound of it.. damn.. luckily,she moved off before saying, "Come Dinol.. we go outside.. bibik's smoking..!"
God, i hate Samantha!!


niwae, other than Sex & eCt.. i haf other life too,u noe.. for one, been spending time wif e fockers,which is a gud thing.. getting myself involved wif Omar's wedding,especially wif e hantaran cake.. yuhoo!! hope e cake will be a gud one & cost-friendly cos i'm planning to sponsor it.. hmmmm..
& i'm grateful to Allah for letting me noe tis family.. e whole family has been very nice & accepting of me.. & i'm praying it will be same for mine too.. Insya Allah.. So frenz,plz... plz pray for me ya.. Hopefully,they will accept the truth..
u noe e song 'Terrified'? from kara,e american idol judge..? dats wat i'm feeling now..

And I-I- I'm in Lurve...

And I- I- I'm terrified..

For e first time & e laz time

In my only Life...............

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

sex & e city... hmm.. interesting topics & interesting views.. i wish i cud b like them.. having galfrenz who r dere for u,can talk about anything & everything in e world.. though they haf their differences, they haf something similar.. : they haf each other & stand by each other,no matter how screwed up they can be..
oh well, life has its ups & downs.. & so does frenz who comes & goes.. i'm juz contented wif e true frenz dat i haf in my life rite now.. tankiu for being who u r to me.. distance & time spent together doesnt matter as long as u noe who u r..

1 very interesting topic in sex & e ct is about singles & attached (married or engaged or watever).. somehow they feel like they r being outcast juz bcos they r single.. does such a thing matter? apparently, yes.. in the western countries, they even haf singles tables in a wedding.. i'm sooo glad dat they do not haf it here in sg.. otherwise, they'll haf Sani's & my name permanently engraved dere.. hahahha!!
not only dat,for events & outings,they r often not asked by their attached frenz becos obviously,they do not wan them to be left out.. hmmm.. its bad enough dat the society is outcasting them but even their frenz r doing dat..

on another side, their crazy & heavily pregnant fren wanna get back into singlehood life,desperately.. seeing how happy & how fun the singles r, she felt a pinch & crashed their party wif her baby in tow to e party..
so wat is it in life do people wan? singlehood or attached? cant e singles mingle wif the attached?

Food for thought,people... food for thought..
=)



ps: Amin is getting married today.. =) Congrats,my bro!!


... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

it has been ages since i laz blogged..
its not cos i do not haf e time but was too lazy to even log in.. 1 day become 1 week.. den 1 week became 1 mth.. hahhahah!! not dat dere's nothing exciting bout my life.. of cos,there r..
1st thing 1st,i had e most incredible & exciting trip ever to Bali for my bdae getaway.. wen wif e people i loved or so i tot.. but i enjoyed every minute of the trip.. right to e day wen i got super duper extremely swollen left eye cos of some dusty shop dere.. but i am overly contented wif my trip.. para-sailing, sight-seeing, shopping, river-rafting & most importantly,bungee-jumping!! did 2 jumps.. & its funny cos they even haf happy hour for bungy jump.. buy 1 get 1 jump free from 2-4pm.. hahah.. & i came at 345pm..
words cannot express how scared i was standing @ e platform dere & how ugly my face was,trying to hold myself together.. videos of my jumps r available on FB..
& i haf a fabulous,romantic,delicious dinner @ a villa @ Legian,complete wif a surprise mini bdae celebration.. ANYWAY,e cake was ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS!!! special thanks to all my cousins for making tis trip an enjoyable one!! luv u guys..

on another note,turning 26 was a denial for me.. i cant accept e fact dat i've not achieved wat i wan in life,like how i haf planned years ago.. i shud b married now wif a successful career,living happily wif my wonderful husband who loves me dearly,in my very own fully renovated home..
or at least,settle down a bit.. change my character abit.. in simpler words, i nid a change now dat my life dun go according to my plans..
after bali, i wanna change everything.. so laz week,i did wat i've always wanted to do but was always hesitant.. frenz can see how i've changed my outlook for now.. hopefully,my attitude will change too,slowly..

niwae, i do not wana blog much now.. but i've got 1 thing to say..

"mayb u r juz a part of me that have happened but will not happen...."

currently,i'm watching sex & the city series.. i've juz finished vol 1 & i can so relate to them bout sex,frenz & relationships.. think soon,i'll update my blogs based on e series dat i've watched.. i noe... i noe... its kinda late cos my frenz haf even finished e whole series but i'm juz starting.. but at least,its betta than never.. & juz by watching e vol 1,i've found e answer to e question dat i've always ask...

"E 1 u love or E 1 who loves u....?"

till next time....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...