things r getting out of hand now.. kakak & me doing all i can for e family..
things happened so much & it really saddened me especially since its Hari Raya Haji.. but wif e support of abg eman, i will be strong & fight!! *whack u in e face!!*

here's a bit of update since a lot of things happened at e same time..
= Ifah's beloved cat,Benny, past away 2 days ago.. She is devastated by tis.. At least i'm 1 of e first few to noe & i hope Benny is up dere leading a happy & joyful timee,running here & dere... always haf fond memories of dat huuuge cat..
= Linda's wedding date is nearing & i went to Geylang Serai to shop for an outfit for e sanding event.. but its eve of Raya Haji so practically all e shops dere tot i'm buying for tomolo..
= Saw Sultanah's bridal is having a sale.. Shall aim for dat cute looking pink outfit which i fell in luv immediately.. think will buy on sunday..
= Adha's being targeted by dat 'najis' @ work.. he's finding fault wif every lil thing dat adha's doing.. & to make matter worst, he had a fight wif some ah-bengs passengers.. hahahha.. mat rep!!
= hoping dat particular sum1 to be strong & hopefully,it will be over soon...
= will be going to Lin's place to haf e video shoot in an hour's time.. Nur & sani is not going to be dere.. i'm sad..
= & i wanna berak now..
niwae,

SeLamat HaRi RaYa HaJi..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

its true,isnt it? e phrase, 'u will realize how much u lurve someone wen u lose her..'.
all tis while, e things said, e threats given,e attention asked, all dat din mean a thing? rite wen i tot things r going 2 b ok,u do all tis... for wat,may i ask? isnt it a lil too late?
all tis leads to more confusion..
wat am i supposed to do? God, lead me e way.. Insya Allah...

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had dinner wif my whole family juz now after work.. apparently,they went to visit ayah & did a mini make-over on ayah's resting place.. cant go cos of hygiene purposes.. niwae,had a chat wif kakak & abg jo.. i'm really turning into an evil woman.. hahahhaha.. but i liiike..

niwae,its sunday & i really haf nothing to do except to wait.. wait.. wait for e return.. but at tis hour, still no news yet.. so i shall get mad & sleep it off.. hmmm... shall think bout tomolo instead.. me & ifah & haslin has a date after work tomolo!!! yeah!! so excited..

ok.. shall sleep now.. =)

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its a saturday & its my off day.. but i'm at home,feeling damn boredom & heartache.. boredom cos i've got no plans & heartache cos i miss ayah.. days passed but i still miz ayah.. enough said about crying la... e tears flow freely everytime e image of him lying in e ground plays in my mind.. Al-Fatihah...

niwae, had a wonderful breakfast @ CoffeeBeans @ JP wif kakek tis morning.. i've been wanting to do tis in a very looong time but kakek being kakek,very slow reception la he.. niwae,we chatted for a brief 15 mins bout us.. i can feel dat he's being very sincere & angry @ me.. i noe.. but i hope he understands how i feel.. enough said.

after breakfast,kakek left to meet his frenz.. i went home to meet linda.. wanted to actually print photos @ e shop but we ended up getting a manicure & pedicure before going for her pre-wedding shoot.. i'm not involved in any way buut i still got myself e mani & pedi.. hahhaha! i'm soooooo excited.. she's getting married in less than 2 weeks' time.. 1st marriage in our gang of 4.. dunno who's next.. mayb its nur & appy.. yeah!!

i'm super bored now wif nothing to do.. i can always call ratna up but i juz dun feel like going out since it has been raining on & off.. think am gonna watch sum tv & get some sleep.. laz nite, i came back home late after watching paranormal activity.. movie is exciting but i think its better if u watched it @ home.. & i'm confused cos peeps keep saying dat dere's 2 endings.. ape ni....
niwae,off to facebook now.. HaPpY weEkeNd everyone!!

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hey peeps.. long time no update hor.. niwae, work has been fun lately.. guez sum of u noe y.. but tis is juz e trying period.. we'll see how it goes.. *winks winks*

i'm stressed out bout ayah's stuff again.. very tired juz even by thinking about it.. had to run to more agencies since HDB is of no use.. so shall go to e lawyer's on tues rite after my nite shift.. niwae, was cleaning out my drawer full of rubbish,den i found sumthing.. a bdae card.. not juz any bdae card but a bdae card from ayah.. it reads:

Kepaba (i wrote tis kepaba when i was younger den i dun wan dat card anymore..) : Norlizah Binti Helmee

Ayah ucapkan Selamat Hari Jadi yg ka-11. Semoga dipanjangkan umur & murah rezeki.

though it was a simple & small card,it meant e world to me cos i suddenly remembered dat ayah wud never forget my bdae year after year.. i cried wen i read e card.. & i remembered him coming over my place @ Holland Drive juz to celebrate my bdae.. & u noe wat? now i noe y i'm so excited about bdaes regardless wat age it was for cos he always make me feel so special on 2nd Feb every year.. Aliz rindu ayah.... u dunno how many million times i've said, "how i wish u were here..."..

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dunno y i haven been blogging much recently.. but i realized dat seah is worst off than me.. laz entry was about e chilli flakes.. den nowadays seldom write letters to me.. den i heard she's been wearing make-up.. WTH?? hahaha.. haven seen her wif e make-up yet.. but i'm sure she look pleasant.. juz simply pleasant. nothing else.. (its e truth,seah..ahahhah)

niwae, e other day, went for my TP & wifout telling my parents.. i keep telling them dat i'm going for my laz prac.. but thinking back,i've used dat excuse a couple of times liao.. hahahah.. & i dun think they realized dat.. niwae,i've passed my driving!! Alhamdullilah..& mama was e 1st one whom i called rite after i got my result.. I'll tell u guys more about my TP if o remember in my next entry k? Hopefully,i can rent a car soon to practice my skill on e road..

2nd Nov,me & haslin went to town to cut her bangs (oh,i cut mine too!!) & did a lil shopping.. den we headed to bugis to eat & lepakz @ Mt Faber.. mcm romantic gitu but its Haslin & me (boooring!!).. niwae, we stopped at Esso @ Telok Blangah for a peeing session.. dunno y but i took all my things except for e toilet key.. so me wanting to claim responsibility instead of juz riding off, i went in & told e lady @ e counter dat i've left e key inside e toilet.. & guess wat's e 1st thing dat she said to me..
Lady: haiyo.. den how i wanna go toilet? i haf to go to e guy's one huh?
den she proceed to complain to her male colleague & repeated e whole thing again & again..
Lady: laz time ah.. got customer bring back home e key.. but dat 1 nvr mind.. can always bring back here.. got spare.. but now u put inside den no spare.. how? u tell me how lor... No spare 1 hor..
Me losing my patience speaking in my perfect english & slang: rite now, i'm claiming responsibility for e key. so instead of u asking me how, why dun u tell me wat u wan me to do.. or perhaps u wud like to call ur manager & i can speak to him..
Male: manager ah? i think he sleep already.. laz time we haf a spare 1 but now we dun..
me obviously angry & lin din even say a word: y dun u check 1st whther u haf a spare key.. simple as dat..
male went into store.. lady still complaining bout how is she gonna to toilet..
Male shouting from inside: ok.. i handle tis.. i got e spare key.
IRRITATED,i walked out...
so u see how stupid people can get sumtimes.. they only worry about e problem instead of how to solve e problem.. i was so pissed dat i swore dat i wun go to dat esso anymore.. dumb lady!!
ok. dats my story.now i'm getting irritated juz by typing tis.

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