Monday, March 30

47) fed up wif my pc

i tell u, since e laz entry, it has been like 2hrs & i still can't log into e net for more than twenty mins.. & best of all, i can't enter friendster, multiply or even facebook... i noe dat i'm outdated but ya, i do have a facebook account.. juz dat i do not noe how to use it.. & since i'm on mc & i haf all e time in e whole today, i tot of rying it out.. but after i accept 2 fren requests, den my comp hang.. i dunno ah.. FED-UP!!!.. all cos of a virus, i think... ARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

e only site i can go to blogspot... EATATING AH!!!!

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

46) updates

din realized dat i haven blog in a while... lots have been going lately & its kinda hectic..

1) sumone's not happy cos i texted her bf.. like duh.. i din do anything wrong or text him mushy2 stuff... obviously, dere's a lapse of communication btwn u 2 so dun get me involved... thanks!!

2) wen to suntec to collect my LAPTOP!!! e item dat i bought during the IT show.. remember? i noe dat i'm outdated but i've been dreaming for a laptop ever since i was in poly.. & dat's like 8,9 yrs ago... wen i open it, i was running my fingers through e keyboard & kept ooo-ing & wow-ing to myself.. finally, i have a laptop dat i bought wif my hard-earned money...

3) my right eye is swollen yet again & dere's something dere.. hopefully nothing serious cos i had it twice already... & on mc laz nite & tonight too.. laz nite, i went to work, only to step in & report sick.. dunno y but wen i reached my workplace, e headache keep getting painful so i decided to go home.. wen to 3 doc & got charged $84 for 6 medicines.. seems like day-light robbery but i guess its bcos of e timing la...

4) went shopping again wif kakek... bought him a fossil wallet & an Aldo sunglasses for myself.. wanted to buy him a wallet long ago but he very cerewet one.. so after choosing, i paid up.. easier dat way.. at least he will like it rather den i buy sumthing dat he dun like... & for my Aldo sunglasses, it was an impulse buy.. hahahhahahah

5) my mum & dad reshuffled my furnitures in my room to create a new layout.. i was talking about doing it but wen i came back from work yesterday, they have already started.. THANKS MAMA & BAPAK!! & i lurve e new layout.. but den again, i think u guys r bored sitting at home e whole day.. dats y u make-over my room, right? hahahah

6) watched Confessions of a Shopaholic.. it was a superb movie... laughed non-stop.. u guys shud watch e part where Rebecca Bloomwood dance wif a fan in her hand.. she is so weird & quirky & kakek says she reminds him of me... sumtimes, i do dance like her.. dats y wen kakek laughed, i duno if he's laughing at e movie or imagining me doing e exact same dance.. & coincidently, he bought me a fan wen he came back from KL e other day.. hahahaha..
& i can so relate to her.. i am a shopaholic too, u noe.. BUT i dun haf a credit payment of &$16000 to pay up.. niwae, go watch it k?

7) & since my room is nice & clean, i tot of throwing stuff in my drawers.. i tell u, i haf lots of junks in my many drawers.. but wen i throw things away which seems like i dun need them, i will end up needing them maybe 2 weeks later.. so... was cleaning cleaning den i found sumthing!! my pen-pal letters from primary sch!! hahaha... my pen-pals are my two best frenz & though we see each other everyday, we write letters to each other... weird rite? was laughing my head off wen i read those letters.. NurAzlina Malik & Farah Norliza Ghazali, if u guys r reading tis, i'm sure u'll b laughing too.. gossips about e gals in e next class, boys, puberty & many more.. we even haf secret name for every1 whom we gossip about... QB la, MC la, KY la... we did continue writing even in diff sec sch.. but somehow, i cudn't find any letters after yr 2000,.. but its kinda cute juz thinking bout it..

niwae, me going to sleep again now.. juz eatem my medicines & i'm getting drowsy.. so.... haf a gud week peeps!!


... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

Monday, March 23

45) i'm going broke soon, i think..

Friday, went to expo to empty my pockets dere.. hahaha.. went to e Adidas Sale with Ifah where i got myself 2 tops & 1 for my missing kakek... (he's away in KL for sum KORN concert & only back laz nite.. which of cos, i haven seen him yet...& ya.. i miz him..) next hall, Robinson sale where i bought a top & 3 PC sets...
like wat linda like to say, i'm doing too much OTs & dats y i haf sooo much to spend.. actually, i wud rather think as after slaving my arse off at work for 2 whole mths, i think i deserve sum shopping for myself.. & not feel guilty about it.. besides, i wanna a tiny weeny bit of change to become a bit more lady-like... hahah

niwae, i drop ifah off e other day & i saw tis cat under her void deck.. it looks like its wearing a tuxedo.. cute rite?


BF tip #4: Dun lie through your teeth... we, ladies, can sense dat...

BF tip #5: Dun play wif words,especially wif a gal named Aliz... hahaha


... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

Saturday, March 21

44) can i get e right partner?

i read tis sumwhere, think in my email ah.. & i sooo understand wat tis is all about cos i keep asking myself dat question... so tis is sumthing for u guys to read about...


"Every relationship has a cycle...In the beginning; you fall in love with your partner. You anticipate their calls, want their touch, and like their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completelynatural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love.People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Picture the expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something happened TO YOU. Falling in love is a passive andspontaneous experience. But after a few months or years of being together, the euphoria of love fades. It's a natural cycle of EVERY relationship.

Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touchis not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship; you will notice a dramatic difference between theinitial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage. At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?" And as you reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someoneelse. This is when relationships breakdown.The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love the person you found.People blame their partners for their unhappiness and look outside for fulfilment. Extramarital fulfilment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most common. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship. It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. AndTEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.. Because (listen carefully to this): The key to succeeding in a relationship is not finding the right person; it's learning to love theperson you found.SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. You have to work on it day in and day out. It takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it demands WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make itwork. Make no mistake about it.

Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner). Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws forrelationships. If you know and apply these laws, the results are predictable. Love is therefore a "decision". Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let GO!! "

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

43) Batam Trip

e other day, 2 of my CRAZY frenz were msn-ing about GG.. den at e same time, both of them decided to msg me & asked where i bought mine.. & e same frenz decided to drive to JB e very nite to purchase GG.. CRAZY B*&%hes!!
& guess wat? we did go anyway.. but luck wasn't on their side.. all e shops dat we went to dun haf GG series.. sold-out apparently... so off we went to SinggahSlalu for an array of seafood.. its been a while since i laz wen to JB for seafood wif frenz.. definitely brings back memories of J, Kak Lily, Abg Rasyid & wan.... Oh God.. i miz them.. but those r history & dat's y they are called memories...
niwae, my off day, went to Batam wif mum, dad & kakek.. wanted to go for a spa treatment but can't.. so i did hair treatment which cos me less than SGD20 & my hair look smooth.. den bring e 2 boys around e malls cos mum haven finish her spa.. OH!! we bought so 'gorengan' & it taste delicious!! actually, its juz fried stuff.. like fried taufu, fried tempe, fried... oh ... juz fried stuff..
after day, we went to another area where they offer SGD8 massage for 90mins... how cool is dat?& since kakek spend 2 hrs waiting for my hair to be done, i offered to follow him for dat massage.. & i really din regret dat desicion.. niwae, massage was FABulous!!! u guys shud really go for it.. where in SG can u $8 massage?!? worth every cent....
niwae, pics of my trip.. weather was sooo hot dat me & kakek keep playing wif our shadows...

Clear cloudless sky @1730hrs.. no wonder its super duper hot!!

Bring e boys out jln2....




me & kakek playing wif our shadowsme & kakek

me mum & dad


My donuts from J.CO


... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

Monday, March 16

42) IT show 2009

here i am blogging away wen i'm supposed to be getting ready for work.. Juz a couple of updates on my life den i'll get ready.. dun worry.. i haf enough time to get a proper shower, unlike sum1 who came to work wifout washing her hair... EEEEuW!!

niwae, off day yesterday & again i din get any sleep.. after work, wen shopping wif Ifah @ TisFashion @ Kranji.. I haf not stepped into TisFashion in a loooong while but after much persuasion from Ifah whose detemination is to get me to buy a dress.. so off we went & tried lots & lots of apparel... In e end, i bought 2 dresses!! hahhaha... & immediately, i wore e denim dress to suntec for e IT show..

e crowd was overwhelming wen i reached Suntec wif Apid.. he was my date for e IT Show.. luckily, he convinced me take public cos it was jam packed everywhere.. wen around looking for both my & his items.. looked at several items & den we bought ourselves e things we wanted b4 kakek arrived.. apid bought tis cooooool exilim camera dat can take pic while u r shaking it & on nite mode sumore.. pic was cystal clear la.. nice... did ask kakek if he wanted to buy me dat too but he replied "no....." bluntly.. damn!! but he dunno dat i already bought sumthing for myself.. & since mine is outta stock, i'll haf to collect it at e end of e mth.. Kakek dunno wat i bought or did i buy anything at all.. so can't reveal now... hahhaha

aite den... its gonna rain now so i guess i better get ready so can get to work earlier... U guys haf a gud monday!!! =)

BF tip #3 (Seah's contribution) : Make sure u r single to begin wif...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

41) 09.03.13

Fallen deeper into e trap dat i've set for myself?
---> nah............ Fell too deep now for anyone to save me.. I;; juz haf to remind all tis will end soon.. But on e positive side, I'll uz haf to enjoy e moment while it last..

PS: on dat fateful day, 1 of my dreams came true... Mind-blowing!!!

XOXO, GilerazGal....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

Thursday, March 12

40) tips

hey guys... u noe wat? i feel like doing up a book entitled: "101 tips on being a boifren.."
amacam? any takers? i think it will be a great hit siak, especially for all the lost boys who have completely no idea on how to treat a gal right...

hmmmmm.... Y dun u guys contribute? oh come on... it'll be fun... i'll do tis: on every entry, i shall write at least 1 tip... den can compile, den can sell, den can get rich... hahahhaha...
let me begin:

1) DUN ever buy a gift for ur gf & den buy e EXACT one for sumone else, especially ur mum or ur sis.. dat's a big NO-NO!!

2) DUN say to a gal: "mayb or later i will call" but in e end u neva call cos u forget or busy.. its better if u dun say anything at all den it will be a surprise.. its better tis way.. even if u wanna argue dat u din ask e gal to wait, we (e kind soul, not stubborn) will definitely wait..

3) * i can't think of anymore cos i wanna berak* hahhahah

Gerlfrenz................. help me in tis ya....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

39) after a day of thinking

a part of me says dat i feel bad & regret for writing the previous entry but another part of me is saying dat its ok to express how i really feel..
i really dunno how to act at work wif tis thing acting up..
juz so u noe, again, i'm sorry if u feel dat way & i really need u 2 understand dat writing e previous entry is not to lash out at u personally but how frustrated i feel at how 1 person's desicion can make evryone feel shitty..

Hopefully, e frenship can be savour... InsyaAllah...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

38) gud relationship gone bad

juz so u noe, i'm crying tis very instance after i read ur entry..
ever wondered y i've always avoided ur conversation regarding e transfer thingy?
ever wondered how bad i feel?
ever wondered dat i'm pushed by circumstances & dat's y i did all dat?
ever wondered if i'm genuinely sorry?
ever wondered wats e REAL reason on why i cried after dat much-talked-about balloting, after talking to TL?
ever wondered if dere r other reasons y TL chose u? i seriously dunno but mayb u do.. i dunno.. i'm juz saying...
ever wondered if all these commotion is making me sick too? sick to e stomach..
sum things dat u shud noe:
-i'm sumone who tells everything & publicizing it,even my dirty laundry.. so its not my fault if u dun let others noe ur problem.. but like they say, to each his own..
-i'm up for a confrontation/talk if u wan to.. dun go around talking about it & letting others noe while u act as if things r ok btwn u & me.. clearly, its not now..
-dun mention dat cos i'm older, i shud be wiser.. I AM... dat's y i'm doing tis..
-e way u talked bout balloting, i noe wat balloting means.. i've done it, remember?
-i am not backing out, merely asking for my rights 2 b exempted like wat e other TSs r doing.. Wat TL did & how she's doing it, is her freaking problem, not mine.. obviously, she's trying to cover her arse too..
-i'm definitely not trying to make MY problem into UR problem.. dat's for sure...
-stop saying 'i dun have any problem with e gal who needs to go to SM' cos obviously u do..
-& dun try to say dat u r not blaming 'e gal' cos obviously u do.. (u r quite contradicting on wat u say on ur entry)..
1 thing for sure, e decision lies with TL.. & if she wans me to play e bitch becoz she did e mistake of not exempting me in e 1st place, den i shall play e bitch.. call me selfish if u wan..
& if u wanna keep throwing things at me, i understand.. i totally do if i'm in ur position..
About wat TL has chosen,plz dun think dat tis is not affecting me too.. i do think about it.. i do feel bad about it.. i do feel like i'm e bitch here.. & i do cry about it..
i've never meant for things to turn out tis way.. i really do.. how a simple thing dat is decided by sum1 else is tearing our frenship away.. even if i'm a bitch, i have feelings too & i care.. all i can say is i'm sorry if u think i'm to blame for wat happened.. i'm sorry if u think i'm not responsible enough.. im sorry if u think tis is too secondary sch-like.. but den again, sorry is juz another word dat i can say.. u really dunno how i feel deep inside.. & its totally up to u to accept tis apology.. definitely, u haf e right in tis..
... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

Wednesday, March 11

37) WLDS CHPNT WINS E MATCH!!!

so much excitement, especially since we r playing in a ACTUAL field instead of e usual street soccer court... & e game is set for WLDS Alpha & TS Alpha... Yuhoo.. finally a competitor not from my own Alpha team...
e game was intense & exciting.. its been quite a while since i laz saw a real soccer game consisting of frens.. e laz time was probably during my time wif J..
niwae, we won!!! WLDS Alpha WON!!! YUHOOO!!!! 3-2!!!

not soccer-related,
-was hoping dat i wun feel tis way about e meeting but i did anyway.. sigh!! sum1 told me tis: sumtimes, sum things r better off unknown, unseen...

XOXO, Gilerazgal...
PS: i've rebonded my hair..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

36) Kumar's Night @ HRC!!

i tell u... its soooo funny lor.. kumar haf not lost his/her (???) touch of making crude, rude, sarcastic remarks/jokes about events or people around.. still e sexy & spicy kumar...
1 thing for sure: dun go wif ur 'yellow' frenz.. he/she'll make fun of them rabakz2... its fun to laugh at people but its definitely not fun to be laughed at.. hahaha.. juz a word of precaution.. take it or leave it..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

35) how my sunday went

disastrous!!! horrendous!! not as well as i planned...
1) Kakek arrived a while after my blog entry which gives me very little time to get ready.. NVM!!
2) Kuda kepang on dat day started a bit late & it was not dat nice..
3) BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT EVER!!!- my fav beef stall has moved to.... DUNNO WHERE!!!??!?! i tell u, e porridge is sooo sedap dat it deserved a 6 'OOOOOO's.. but it has been replaced by a stall selling mee soto, mee rebus, lontong kinda stall (at nite? huh?)

Plz plz plz... if u ever noe where my fav stall have moved to, let me noe ya... i'm sooo craving for it!!! arg!!!
Info: its e Teh Tarik infront of Kampung Melayu.. & its e stall in e centre of e dining area..
plz... any1 giving me any info on this stall will be rewarded handsomely..

=)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

Saturday, March 7

pics at work

actually..... juz wanna show u guys e new bangs la... hahhahaaha...

introducing ADHA, me beloved buddy @ work....

e slenger bacin guy who's always disturbing others, except me cos i haf adha.. hahah!!


XOXO, gilerazgal
... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

34) how i'm spending my saturday now

weird but i kinda forget wat day it is today... niwae, i haven slept since i came back tis morning.. & its 4pm wen i promised kakek dat i will sleep at 1pm.. hahah.. well, tis is wat i've done so far...

morning: breakfast wif a few colleagues.. & thanks to Ifah, i had chicken noodles for breakfast.. i tot dats supposed to be lunch..
afternoon till now: got home & watch Gossip Girls again.. yeah.... i noe.. laugh at me if u wan to.. i noe GG is soooo 2008 but i stopped after watching the 13th episode den...
Night (mayb): off to Kampung Melayu for my fav beef porridge & kuda kepang...

so here's e deal.. i'm supposed 2 b sleeping now & kakek's coming in 2 hrs time but i'm still not asleep yet & GG is still playing on my TV... blame it on Kakek.. e other day, we went to JB & i found a shop dat finally sell e complete set of GG & DirtySexyMoney.. so i bought BOTH series with 2 seasons each.. & since den, i'm hooked on GG... HELP!! now, i'm actually asking for help here.. i can't stop watching!!! e other day, i can't convinced kakek to watch wif me.. like, arg!! laz time wen i watched online, he was dere too.. but now, no... i haf to watch it all alone & i really dunno how to switch off my DVD player.. all i noe is to press 'NEXT' & 'OPEN' & insert a new disc & press 'PLAY'...

& u noe wat? it was on 'PAUSE' a while ago cos i'm super hungry.. so i cooked scrambled eggs & toast... so now i'm having breakfast menu for my lunch...weird!! & while i'm writing tis blog, GG is still playing... so enjoy ur weekend peeps.... me going back to my GG... & i'm soooo looking forward to Monday!!! i'm going for Kumar's nite @ HRC wif a few colleagues.. its been a while since i laz stepped into HRC.. actually, i can't even remembered e laz time.. well aniwae,gtg!!

XOXO,gilerazgal... (hahahaha)

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

Friday, March 6

33) oh shuttup, people!

told ya i've got bangs now.. ifah seems e only genuine one who thinks its cute.. she was soo excited to see my bangs.. Oh ya.. & my dad too.. was super admiring my bangs & kept saying its nice.. mum said,"its nice!" bluntly. kakek took a whole 10 secs to reply whether i'm cute wif e new hairstyle or not (obviously,he's overwhelmed by e outcome).. nur saw e pic on my msn for a brief sec & mentioned dat its buruk.. M said its cute but only bcoz i think he forced himself too. Taib & huda din recognised me tis morning when i said 'hi' to them.. oh!! & sam too.. at least khairi & adam did recognized me but had to mentioned, "wat happened siak to u?"

See how a simple bang can do to u.. getting all e attention, unwanted attention actually.. people!! sumtime a change is good.. at least in my hairstyle case.. actually, i haf a love hate relationship wif my hair.. so dun add fuel to e fire can or not!!


niwae, 4 cars think i'm chinese & said i'm sweet.. hahhaa.. they totally make my day...

1 car= auntie auntie (tai-tai) sort

1 car = '03' chinese men

2 cars = makcik makcik melayu...

see? dere r nice people around... aaahhh....


i have a confession to make... e other day, i cleared tis cute guy who looked chinese but his name is burgess daniel martin.. hensem giler!!! confirmed mixed breed one.. i've decided to mentioned it online cos i suddenly remembered his name & i think he's super cute... hahahhaa..

but den again, i think i'm beginning to turn into Stalker-Seah.. arg!! no!!!


k den.. me gtg for work.. presnting my new bangs.. & its TOTALLY up to u to jugde..

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

Thursday, March 5

32) updates

got myself a new haircut.. actually, not haircut la.. juz cut e bangs.. a bit on e kawaii side but i kinda like it.. only dat it needs sum getting used to..

work-wise, e sm discussion thingy is getting outta hand... apparently, it seems like people r still talking & must i say, bitching about me.. now i have nothing else to say but let it to e hands of God.. hopefully, it will turn out well & not cause any friction btwn anyone.. but 1 thing i noe for sure, wen peeps say lets keep tis conversation btwn e 2 of us, dun believe them.. i'll remember dat..

& my dad juz went for an x-ray of e brain 2 days ago.. e result is not dat gud though.. laz mth, we haf an option of going for an op.. but looking at e results now, we might haf no other option but to do e op.. but dunno yet la.. he's now at another x-ray.. den we'll see wat e doc has to say den.. its definitely causing a straint in my family, regardless of financially & emotionally.. its like a roller-coaster ride for us now.. & its definitely not helping wen there's isnt much OT dat i can do at work..

lets hope for e best!! pray for me guys, work & my dad too....

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...

Sunday, March 1

31) stressed up

went to Bikes Asia on friday thinking i wud b e 1st few to catch it BUT no... its only open to traders.. DARN!! & its not even fair wen u dun even broadcast it in e news..
ended up at NATAS fair instead to check out e prices for Bali.. Damn tempting.. i sooo need a holiday for myself now... really wan a get-away-from-everything vacation desperately...

niwae, wats stressing me up is work related.. apparently, sum shuffling is going on & wif e help of my team leader, she understood my situation & helped me by giving me a solution.. But by helping me, i guess its hurting sum peeps' feelings... & i do feel bad about it but like wat she said, i did as told.. & to make matter worst, news at WDCKPT spread faster than CNN.. so i guess lot of people noe & definitely talking behind my back.. i juz hope dat these people wud understand my situation but as much as i hope for their understanding, humans r still humans.. they will talk bout u irregardless.. & i always believe dat i can't please everyone.. so let them talk... & i noe dat if my intentions r gud, GOD will side wif me.. Insya Allah.. call me selfish but i'm doing it for my family..

Ya Allah... ku mohon agar diberi ketabahan untuk melaluinya...

... juz becos u read about me doesn't mean u noe me ...